Accepting I'll never be living (4)

1 Name: Anonymous : 2011-06-12 08:42 ID:siJZKipd

I should just begin to realize that I'm never going experience simple happiness or view life as a humanistic manner. I getting sick of being reminded or watching something (this time being the film Colorful) with such a simple message that could bring joy to me, but me doing nothing or making excuses of me not doing so. No matter how much I see something as simple as having a friend can be and I just spend my days cooped away in my room; what's worse is that I even have someone I known online for many years and always wants to be friends and closer to me, but I can't stand communicating with him and wish he would just stop, as with any other person I tried to be "friends" with.

All I feel I could to try to be more alive is make posts on such sites asking for help, and then never really trying. I know I can never go out and do something living, and while I'm slowing believing I could be brave enough to take an opportunity if it came to me, I know such a scenario will never happen. And while I know the best advice I could get from this is "only you can make something happen" and "to be myself," it's just going to fall on deaf ears and do nothing to be living.

2 Name: Anonymous : 2011-06-12 10:14 ID:OM5zm4hM

You're doing it wrong.

3 Name: Anonymous : 2011-06-12 11:54 ID:l+rEcyb7

I've been struggling with the same. I really cannot offer anything else than my sympathy.

4 Name: Anonymous : 2011-06-12 17:19 ID:siJZKipd

I see...

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