I've never told any of this before. I feel like I need some help.
I'm 26 year's old. I've only ever had 1 girlfriend, which I met at student accommodation at university, I've lost my virginity to her when I was 20.
At first I had problems with my erection when I was intimate with her, which was a massive blow to my confidence. I saw a doctor, he said everything is fine with my hardware. We worked on it, and figured it out.
We where together for almost 2 years, then she broke up with my email when I was in another country. After a year of not seeing each other we've started hanging out again, and having sex on a regular basis. It were sort of together, but didn't want to admit it.
During that period I've had attempted drunken sex with a flatmate, but also had problems with getting hard, which I blamed on how drunk I was. I've had a crush on her since we've started living with each other.
University ended, we both went separate ways. Same with my exgirlfriend.
My ex visited my a year or two after university, and we where having sex the same day, she stayed at my place for a couple of days. When she went back home I cried for a day.
I've never ever had any other sexual contact with girls, had a few drunken make outs, but never one night stands.
I've only been one 1 date in my life, with a girl I met via OKCupid. It didn't really work out, it was pretty awkward.
I'm scared of getting close to girls/dating, because I have a fear of not only being inexperienced with women, but also I'm freaked out that I won't get hard when it comes to getting freaky.
So this is the story of my dating life.
I'm not unattractive, I'm quite skinny, but not horribly. I've been told I have nice eyes, and my lesbian friends say I'm handsome.
Some people think I'm gay, I'm not really. It's also an issue for me when people insist I am. Anyway, any advice about dating would be appreciated!