I'm ronery. So are the lot of you. Let's wallow together in our sense of non-belonging.
I had this dream about this girl I used to like in high school, but never worked up the balls to ask out or anything. Ended up losing contact with her upon graduation.
So now, eleven years later, I have this dream. It's summer, at night time, I'm walking back home from somewhere and it's rather dark. I'm in a park or something. Then a small-ish dog runs at me and starts yapping excitedly, and suddenly she's there, with the leash in her hand. She's wearing a summer dress, the kind that is said to cause car accidents.
I recognize her at once, even though I don't see her face so clearly. And I realize that even though I'm supposed to have got over her, I'm still very glad to be having this dream (what could it be else, it's mid-fall after all, can't wear shorts anymore). I enthusiastically join the conversation she strikes up and smile a lot.
Then the dream dissipates and I'm left awake, wanting desperately to return to that dream, with a raging sense of ronery.
I'm not lonely, I fucking hate people and society.
I smell emos, amiright?
(ｷﾀ━━━━━━(ﾟ∀ﾟ)━━━━━━ !!!!!)
>>4
No, YHBT
When I was about nine, I had recently gotten a Nintendo Entertainment System from a garage sale down the road, the first gaming system I ever had. One game that I bought was Super Mario Brothers 3, the final chapter of the widely-acclaimed SMB trilogy, which like in the original Super Mario Brothers consisted of Mario/Luigi chasing after Princess Toadstool (whose name has since been bastardized to 'Peach'). Back on topic though; so I had advanced to World 2, "Desert Land" and I was moving along rather smoothly, in the back of my mind knowing that at some point the levels would start to get more difficult; I soon noticed a tile, one unlike the other tiles (Toad houses, numbered tiles, etc). It appeared to be some cross-hybrid of flowing diarrhea and sand, which caught my attention. I navigated my way to the tile, and hit the A button and was warped to what appeared to be a normal level; there even was a happy sunshine in the top left corner! As I side-scrolled my way through the level, the fucking sun decided to go apeshit and sodomize me repeatedly until I finally broke down in tears, throwing my controller at the ground screaming for my mom. That fucking bastard.
>chasing after Princess Toadstool (whose name has since been bastardized to 'Peach')
What do you mean 'bastardized'? That's the original name!
Does it matter?
What kind of a name for a princess is 'toadstool?
I, too, am ronery. People take one look at me and say JESUS CHRIST IT'S A LION GET IN THE CAR and run.
Have you considered the possibility that you are, in fact, a lion?
Why would they run if they have a car?
I had another dream about her last night. Weirdly enough she was humming the Covenant song "Happy Man". You know, the one that goes "I don't love anyone".
Does this count as my subconscious flipping me off?
I discovered my ultimate sexual fantasy last night while reading doujinshi. I want to be dressed up like a maid and enslaved by another man. He would make me grow my hair out like a girl. Every day I would make him tea and suck him off.
I haven't gone outside in three days.
You can go outside by yourself, you know.
I'm getting tired of the internet and it's inhabitants. I really should just ask a girl to be my Girlfriend instead of flirting and being nice. I mean, it's not like we'll ever FUCKING meet in real life. I'm ugly and hate being around people anyway. I'm reclusive and introverted.
I don't know what i want! i've been inside my condo for 3 years (going on 4) and haven't been doing shit. I'm just so lazy and wasting time on myspace talking 13-15 year old asian girls. Or Playing video games, pillow-humping, night gazing outside my window (oh wait, i boarded up my windows in my fucking room!) I mean my paddio (sp?) window.
Shit, i'm really getting tired of conversing with people on the internet as well... so boring. Starting to give up girls too. I'm thinking about going into complete solitude and be alone all my life.
Meh, i need to focus on beating some of my ps2/xbox/GC etc. games anyway.
-P. flawless (Y75)
21, been a hikki since 16, no job, a virgin, spend my entire days on 4chan and 4-ch, absolutely zero signs of improvement. Sometimes my waking hours are during the day, sometimes in the night. No hope of any future. ;_;
20, half-o'-hikky for last 3 years. Every year I've got expelled from the same faculty of the same university after the first semester. I feel myself useless. Spend days on 4chan trying to numb my feelings. Now I regret this.
No hobby, no girlfriend, no job, no will to do anything.
I'm interested in some programming stuff, papercrafts, but I just CAN'T MAKE MYSELF! Arrgh... Every weekend I promise myself to start a new life next week, but never succeed in this.
I want to love, I want to have someone who will cheer me up when I'm feeling so ronery. But I ended up in anonymous society and I can't just leave it. It's like my last resort. Still I hope to meet someday a person who is as miserable as me, and we will improve ourselves by challenging each other!
>>I want to love, I want to have someone who will cheer me up when I'm feeling so ronery. But I ended up in anonymous society and I can't just leave it. It's like my last resort. Still I hope to meet someday a person who is as miserable as me, and we will improve ourselves by challenging each other!
Amen to that!
Doesn't "improve ourselves" sort of imply that?
>>23
Well not really, if you rely on someone exterior (I'm not saying it doesn't help in the beginning).
But in the end, you have to realize it's only you you have to challenge.
This thread makes me sad, so many like me. i'm 25 and recluse four years, doing nothing and all my dreams were crushed. I have no will anymore, therapy and pills do nothing. Maybe i'll get hit by a car when i get GTA4 and all my worries will be over, especially my painfull pitifull existence.
It helps you challenge yourself though, it's like support or something. You might not have the self confidence initially to keep it up, and it might feel like no progress is being made. That's why I've been interested in the idea of "coming out of shell" type support groups, not aware of any in my area yet though. But yeah, if someone were to visit those kind of support groups still set in my ways like you say, nothing would change.
>> But yeah, if I were to visit those kind of support groups still set in my ways like you say, nothing would change.
Fixed.
Today I feel so GREAT. I taken someone out on a date, although this was in the virtual world of GTA 4. It felt so real, you know? ;_;
Thanks Michelle.
Sorry to break your heart, but Michelle is actually called Karen, and she works for a government agency. Her job is to deliver you over to them.
THAT FUCKIN BITCH
Wait, THAT'S agent K? Damn I hope she doesn't know I was sent to get the real Michelle...