I had a good life once. i was a decent student, a good sportsman and i had many good friends. then i met a girl, to me she was perfect but i never had the guts to tell her i feel so i kept everything bottled up inside me for many many years. eventually i told her how i felt about her but she rejected me flat out saying she know me for a long time and she never have any feelings for me.

i threw away my life after that, she didnt want anything to do with me afterward and without her my life had no meaning. i flunked out of college and shut myself in my room and even tried to kill myself. and now almost 5 years later i still wake up with tears in the middle of the night.

i just heard that she will be moving overseas soon, i want to see her know how she is doing, but now im just a broken down man working at Mcdonald for minimum wage. if i wasnt good enough before why should she even see me now....

i know most people would think im crazy because in these age people change partner all the time, but i tried that and nothing ever work. this might be my last chance to see her and i take this chance i might live with regret for the rest of my life yet i cant just show up in front of her house when she clearly want me out of her life

sorry for the lost post and bad english

A_LostSoul