I am so sorry to have dissapointed you all. But there are things you don't understand, things I didn't understand until recently.

My closure came the day the email was sent when she said that she couldn't see me. That was her way of telling me, even though I like you, I don't want to introduce any complication into my life, I don't want to get hurt any more. This relationship won't work. Etc.

That was my closure. I didn't want to believe it. I wanted to get her cell number, travel to her city, and tell her, "Hey, I'm here so lets get lunch. Any time is good for me. I'll wait for you" I could have said all of those things. I could have fought with all I had. But I realized something, even if I did all of those things, she didn't have enough feelings for me to match what I had for her. I had enough love to travel to another country, while she didn't have enough love to take the risk.

Once I saw that, I found peace of mind. Yes, I'm sad, yes I'm dissapointed, but I feel no regret in not contacting her. I made every step that was reasonable, and was rejected. So I feel that you guys are being unfair to me right now. I'm not asking you to respect me for making what I feel is the mature decision, but please at least understand why.