My tale of sorrow (108)

1 Name: First-Failure : 2007-06-18 19:18 ID:6+wFbaQ2

Fellow brothers and sisters of the Love & Romance board, please read my tale of my first ever adventure in love. I’m 17, geeky-stereotyped, but really a normal and interesting guy. I still collect LEGO toys, but only those really cool mechs. I love building Gundam model kits, Perfect Grade is pretty challenging but exciting, knowing you’re at the highest level. You can call me a mecha-otaku if you’d like. I’m located in the UK.

The shining star of this story is my first love. She was in the US, Oregon. These events all happened in the casual “game/forum” GaiaOnline.

It all started that fateful day…I don’t remember the real date, but I think it was 16th April. I was bored during those hours, so I decided to look around people’s profiles. I looked at this rather amusing player, going along the lines of “Straw Hat Luffy” from my favourite anime One Piece. Intrested in the idea, I found a picture of his “crew” that each character image was linked to the player’s personal profile. The order was in the same order as when the crewmate joined the Straw Hat Pirates, and I opened them all in the same order in Firefox’s tabs.

Tab 1. Rorouna Zoro (Not sure about the spelling). Intesting guy, he managed to capture the 3 sword style the actual character has. Tab 2. Nami. This was one of the more intresting characters, because she managed to collect ALL of the clothes the real character had, and mentioned which arc of One Piece was the clothes shown in. Tab 3. Usopp. The character was captured perfectly, except for his long nose… Tab 4. Sanji. Perfect use of the emo haircut, and the shirt, tie and pants were the exact same ones! Tab 5. Dr. Chopper. This guy tried his best, but couldn’t make the cute furry character in the game. Tab 6. The profile was amazingly designed, and pretty funny too (“I wish I was a monkey, so throwing poop at people would be legal.”). She was Nico Robin. I saw the little image near the corner saying “Proud to be a [religion censored in order to prevent fights] girl.”

A silly smile took over my face. I clicked the insert comment link, and typed:
“You’re a [religion censored in order to prevent fights] too? You love One Piece too? So do I!”

Later in the same week, she PMed (Private Message) me telling me about updates on her profile. I would always check them out and enjoy. We only had a weak bond, stronger than strangers, but weaker than friends. 20th April (I think.) came upon us, and she told me about some guy who kept pestering her. I helped her out of it, by telling him off and showing how to stop him from messaging her again. The following day, the “results” came. She asked me what age I was, and she told me she was 16. I replied saying I was 17, and the next few weeks we spent talking about our families, and other things like that. We were no more than mere friends. Trading emails and revealing our true names, I was happy. I asked her in one of the emails for her photo, and she asked (and received) for mine first. When her photo did show up, god, she was amazingly attractive. I think I fell in love at that moment…

59 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-06-28 16:26 ID:kRlxMWiA

Now it seems like they are messing with you. Or atleast just her or something. Maybe it really is better to forget about her

60 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-06-28 18:14 ID:Heaven

>>58
Fail for GaiaOnline

61 Name: First-Failure : 2007-06-28 18:29 ID:vMfmn6bG

>>59

I know.

>>60

Hey, fuck you.

62 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-06-28 21:02 ID:IoqydXEs

you need to let this go.

63 Post deleted by moderator.

64 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-06-28 23:38 ID:Sf7qVxGm

can you at least state what the hell it is you want to do?

else, hoax it up better

65 Name: First-Failure : 2007-06-29 13:02 ID:IusVfpXq

Just to be friends with her...and not be pushed as just some ordinary guy.

Here's the conversation my friend had:

<Friend> it used to be [nickname] but i decied that to give myself some privacy i would make this account. Oh yea that reminds me [my name] said you and him have had some problems and advised me not to talk to you. Because he is my friend i wouldnt want to make him see me as a traitor so i would like you to explain the situation to me so i may fix it because i wouldnt like to ignore you either if you get what i mean. If the issue is too private then its ok you dont need to tell me ^,.,^

<Robin> well, [my name]'s the ONLY guy that meant everything to me...i juss got in on the wrong foot...and went too far. i wanted to be a better [religion censored] girl. i get what u mean. and i hope u understand that i dont wanna betray [my name]'s words to u, so i cant tell u everythin in detail. we both made a mistake, but [religious saying for god willing], i asked for repentance. i always cried non stop after i ended us. im still hurt. can u tell [my name] that i will never ever forget him? i feel that he doesnt like me anymore

<Friend> of course ill tell him. But it would be better if you didnt tell him about it. He will probably contact you again if you get what i mean, ill try and make everything ok again for all of us. ok!! as both your and [my name]'s brother in [religion] i think its my duty to make everthing ok for the [religious society] again, if you get what i mean [her name]

<Robin> ya i get u. thnx lots and lots [friend's name]. btw, r u from [my country] too?

<Friend> im sorry to say that im not from [my country], im from [friend's country] so im basicly an [friend's nationality], but i dont look it, i look like a proper white boy. lol, so where abouts are you from

<Robin> WOW! i have SO many [friend's nationality] friends. they;re awe some. my mom's [her mother's nationalities] and my dad is [her father's nationality]. he's [her father's nationality] lol. im just...both. icon_3nodding.gif so, [a sentence in a language my friend and her know]

Looks like I was subliminally dumped.

66 Name: Frigid Onanoko : 2007-06-29 14:32 ID:Sf7qVxGm

for the sake of umma you better stop this nonsense now, kid.

67 Name: First-Failure : 2007-06-29 15:06 ID:y4fPujeT

I know! I'm just telling you anything that has happened involving the relationship.

68 Name: First-Failure : 2007-06-30 09:54 ID:F4c4iVUq

By the way. Her sister and Robin had the same voice when I called them once. So it's possible the real Robin used her sister's details. Then when I called her for the last time, maybe her sister picked it up and never knew me. So her real name may be completely different.

69 Name: First-Failure : 2007-06-30 09:57 ID:F4c4iVUq

Just checked my email, here's the message:

"look i can explain bout the call...

my dad picked it up (as u know) and he put it on loudspeaker so i can speak in fronna him. then i had to say "who r u" or "i don know u" so my dad wouldnt know who u were... im so sorry. but i told u not to call me anymore. that day i got grounded for the whole entire summer. from the internet. i told my dad that i registered for this product but i didnt know who u were. juss plz, understand?

  • why did u call?"

I said I called because I felt like it.

70 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-07-02 10:56 ID:IusVfpXq

Looks like you got her in trouble, man. You should have left her before.

71 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-07-02 14:26 ID:Heaven

move on, learn from this, and try to be a little less of a fucking retard

72 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-07-02 14:49 ID:QZ7YMq5x

This happened to me once too, the girl said not to call her home but she was still showing interest and for a while she didn't contact me so I got worried and called her home, and she got angry.

Turns out she was seeing me behind her husband's back.

73 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-07-02 14:52 ID:l9+ilRhi

oh god this is turning bad.make sure you are not in a love triangle or anything...it's not that i am flaming you,but if you are the 3rd party...well you are the one at fault.i think you should settle thsi as soon as possible before it gets tanggled up even worse

74 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-07-02 15:03 ID:Heaven

uh.
this is like.
the most dedicated troll ever.
congratulations.

75 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-07-02 16:12 ID:WJtHaKd8

>>74 I hardly think this classifies as a troll...

It sounds like it's over, over... And you're better off, I think, considering there was no way this was going to work, with her parents being very strictly religious and against this, and her apparently not willing to go against them at all, and wanting to be just as devoutly religious...

You had earlier mentioned your friend talking with her, and it seeming like she wanted to continue the relationship...

From the transcript of that talking, I hate to say it, but I saw nothing that indicated that she wanted any relations to continue, although she did still care about you...

I hate to say it, but I think in calling, you read too much into it, and she was definitely not wanting you to call any more...

Though I still wish you luck, and perhaps things will still somehow work out, I doubt they will, or should, go any further at the very least on your end, as her parents and her own devotion to their religion seem to be standing in your way, with none of them willing to give any ground on that topic...

76 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-07-03 06:32 ID:Sf7qVxGm

Its troll. you can tell by various

1) elaborate (but amateurish) use of storytelling techniques i.e. many cliffhangers, the 'He who must not be named' thing.

2) sloppy errors that not would happen if story were genuine. Look at >>65; no justification at all how op actually got that confidential script.

3) stretching.

77 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-07-03 23:28 ID:+TZRG6BT

467!
How did the party go?
I'm so excited.

78 Name: First-Failure : 2007-07-04 09:49 ID:IusVfpXq

>>71

"move on, learn from this, and try to be a little less of a fucking retard" - That's more directed towards you.

>>76

It's fucking not troll.

1) I keep certain things secret for obvious reasons. Personal information!
2) My friend told me about that conversation, and then he forwarded it to me. I then edited it to be posted here.
3) LOL WUT

>>77

?

79 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-07-08 17:46 ID:gZfTNt5U

>>76

It's too specific. Gaia online. One Piece. Finding Robin from her profile?? It sounds pretty legit to me.

80 Name: First-Failure : 2007-07-10 13:30 ID:Bqo6sUAn

>>79

I'm glad some people agree with me.

I talked to someone who knows my religion more than I do, and he said that if I started to develop feelings for her (which I did) it would be against my religion. That was a few weeks ago... and now I'm banned from GAIAONLINE again. It just helps me ignore her more, which I wanted to do in the first place.

81 Name: First-Failure : 2007-07-24 16:50 ID:0p5Oy9lZ

Time for my extravagant return.

I dropped Gaia because of that... then when I was bored the other day I wanted to see how it's going. I got banned again... but I just went to check my profile.

Robin said she misses me... So I emailed her yesterday. Now waiting for a reply...

82 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-07-24 20:30 ID:Heaven

>>81 keep waiting, one less hikkikomori in life.

83 Name: First-Failure : 2007-07-25 08:26 ID:kU6d56yK

>>82

Yep... What's a hikkihomori?

84 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-07-25 11:54 ID:WJtHaKd8

>>81
Now I think this is dumb, what you're doing here...

She already made it crystal clear that there's no chance for anything between you, because of the fact that she's devoted to her religion, and is unwilling to go against her parents over it... (Regardless of how blind & stupid I may think that is, that's another story)...

Now, it's been over, and just because she's sending "teasing" messages about "missing" you, you're starting this up again??

I'm not sure what you're hoping to gain here, by starting anything up...

She dropped you like a rock, regardless of the fact that her parents & religion controlled her into doing so...

Sounds like she's now playing a tease by e-mailing you back...

If she truly was into this "My parents & religion don't allow me to be with you", then she'd drop all contact with you... Instead, she's now sending e-mails saying she's "missing" you?? What is this, some game she's playing, where one minute, she's devout to her parents & religion, but the next, she can say how she misses you??!!

Even getting involved with this person again is asking for trouble, and you seem to be inviting angsty trouble by even being dumb enough to take her little bait & e-mail her back...

85 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-07-25 14:40 ID:vaeFTpyQ

>>81
Banned from Gaia did you say?

Let this be a sign of divine intervention.

86 Name: sage : 2007-07-25 14:44 ID:+aQUULPl

seriously.
just give up monster-troll.
you are teh suck.

87 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-07-25 14:45 ID:Heaven

sage goes in link field lulz

88 Name: First-Failure : 2007-07-26 09:41 ID:kKq1SyTN

>>86
>>87

Shut the fuck up.

Since none of you guys aren't going to help me whatsoever, I'm going to stop posting here because faggots like >>86 and >>87 constantly pop up.

I actually was pissed at her for bringing up the relationship and then ending it by blaming that it was all my fault.

The entire reason I posted this here is because I thought this would be a good, clean community. But some people posting in threads they're not intrested in tells me that it's not the community I thought it would be.

So please, get off the computer and go outside.

89 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-07-26 22:20 ID:Heaven

There are assholes regardless of where you go. Hiding behind a keyboard brings out the worst in anyone, even us 2-ch-wannabe types.

90 Name: First-Failure : 2007-09-19 21:50 ID:hC2K1zyW

Well... I couldn't believe this myself.

As the fasting season begun, Robin sent me an email saying Happy Ramadan (name of the fasting season).

I asked her whether she wanted to be friends again. She replied by saying that she was thinking of me all the time... and wasn't sure whether to be friends again, but not over the top like last time. I said to Robin that friendship could not be broken so easily, and shown her how my friends in my home country still remember me after 2 years.

Was this a good move?

91 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-09-19 22:48 ID:2nD9tQpB

>>90
nice job on releasing the info of her religion...

92 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-09-19 23:48 ID:2MQQJIeO

>>91
We all figured it out long before

93 Name: First-Failure : 2007-09-20 09:19 ID:hC2K1zyW

Oh dear.

Robin replied today. She said that she thought I was pretty immature after I left a "that video fails" comment on her profile after we broke up. She was crying everyday and now I feel terribly guilty...

What should I do to get rid of that image?

94 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-09-20 10:17 ID:2MQQJIeO

>>93
Leave that in the past. You were mad, bitter, angry and sad.
It happens.

95 Name: First-Failure : 2007-09-20 21:27 ID:hC2K1zyW

>>94

Thanks. Now to email her again...

96 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-09-21 00:34 ID:3SUAPAKI

>>93
Change your name and go live in the desert. In time you will forget.

97 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-09-22 16:48 ID:yvlVNB37

>>96 lol

98 Post deleted by moderator.

99 Name: First-Failure : 2007-09-23 06:22 ID:oWTYuokD

I can't seem to be bothered to send a email back. It's been a few days and she might be thinking "Ha, that shut him up."

That, and...

100 Name: First-Failure : 2007-09-23 06:25 ID:oWTYuokD

100 get!

101 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-09-23 12:01 ID:G//M2NKu

101 get!

102 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-09-27 03:23 ID:g9IKvfvc

Densha wannabe

103 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-09-27 05:32 ID:3SUAPAKI

Summarize shorter. We're busy people.

104 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-09-27 07:16 ID:rY7usNlZ

>>102

Epic Failure

105 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-09-27 13:37 ID:5nU3PNpq

105 get!

106 Name: Nice Guy : 2007-10-08 13:48 ID:k70KlSSY

the OP watches too much drama for such a young age, giving him romanticized notions of reality.

You're young and still able to believe in these kind of ideals of love and strong relationships that last eternity, but the experience you'll be left with after this will change you, either for good or worse ;p

I speak from personal experience. When I was in high school, I was a weeaboo like yourself, and fell in love with some girl, and made the whole "we have to be friends for eternity" speach, and the "I care for you and can't let you go" stuff.

In the end, I ended up not speaking to her for years, until I got drunk one night and wrote to her on facebook, which she replied to a few months later :X

P.S. A good tip, listening to her voice for pleasure is cool and all if youve been in a serious relationship with her and are seperated or something.

Meeting a girl online and treasuring her voice seems kind of...

107 Name: First-failure : 2007-11-14 00:27 ID:6g9WVBeo

I'm back.

I managed to get her back as a friend, not in any intimate way.

Success?

108 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-11-14 23:38 ID:ulzZqefp

I cannot say if you are meant for each other, nor what an intimate relationship might result in. What I can say though, is that if she has any true belief in her heart that she should not be talking to you online, she will feel guilty. You need to decide if a friendship with her is worth making her doubt herself and possibly going back and forth between 'we can't talk to each other' and 'I miss you'.

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