Don't risk it. I don't think you love her, i think it's just a silly infatuation since you have social phobia, never been with women, etc. And the first woman you relate to, HAS to be someone you love, it's not true, if you want to, confess, then if you feel very hurt, and after a week you don't feel hurt anymore, it means you really didn't love her. Love is hard to come by.