Help me. I love myself (5)

1 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-07-24 16:46 ID:n8iE7jPj

Over the past year I've been trying to lie to myself, to think on something else, even got laid and tried to fall in love with other girls, anything but admitting what I, deep down inside, already knew.

I love myself. Not in the way most people love themselves, but in the way a man loves a man. Not because of some silly fetish either; when I say love, I mean real, "I'll go to the end of the world for you" love.

I am only 26 years old, and currently doesn't have a girlfriend. I'm pretty, at least to my eyes, but this is not fueling this. It's my personality. I like no other women this much. I always had a lot of chemistry, it's as if I am engineered to be together with myself. I'm sure if I had been cloned, we would be the happiest couple in the world right now.

Lately, I realized I could not give up on this, but I'm kind of scared. I know this is fucked up. But I don't know what to do. I've been avoiding fapping for a couple of weeks, and this is causing me suffering, which in turn breaks my heart. I don't know if I should confess my love and face the consequences of experiencing a kind of love that's considered unacceptable in our society, even from myself, or just let it pass and die inside.

Help me /love/, what should I do? I think I may be feeling something similar for me because I am very close and I consider me attractive, but I don't know to what extent this may only be wishful thinking on my part. Knowing me, I'm sure I won't be angry at me if I tell me how I feel, but I don't know for sure if I'll feel the same about me. I'm positive our family and community will oppose such love, but if I love me, I'm willing to face all of them or move to some other country to start a new life with me. But I wouldn't want to put pressure on me or make me feel uneasy, so while I think I should confess, I'm not 100% sure and I don't know to what extent what I think is distorted by my strong affection for me.

2 Name: dyke nails : 2007-07-24 19:26 ID:BlP8wqJv

That's rough, man. I really don't know what to say...Don't beat yourself up about it, though. Society may not be totally accepting of your feelings, but as long as you can stay true to you and yourself, then it's none of their business who you love!

As for actually determining whether or not you are actually going to return your feelings...You sound like a decent enough person who would not want to hurt yourself if you came out and confessed the truth. I think that you should go for it and see where it takes you. From an outsider's opinion, I think there is a good chance you'll find yourself having a very happy future with your one and only :)

If you really want to change, though, and date someone else, I suggest developing multiple personality disorder to get you over the first "hurdle" of seeking relationships with people who aren't you. After you date one of your alternate personalities for a while, you can dump them and move on to relationships with people "on the outside" of yourself. However, I don't reccomend lying to yourself, and if you find this transition too forced or painful, don't go through with it! I'm sure you are a wonderful person just the way you are, which I suppose is the root of your problem...^^;;

3 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-07-24 23:27 ID:3HEEunH5

Eew. This is gross. I can understand some kinds of taboos but this is just over the top. Forget about it, man. Nobody will understand you, you won't get married, you might even lose your job. Move on.

4 Name: Secret Admirer : 2007-07-25 02:30 ID:ovFJR5nN

Firstly, I know exactly what you are talking about but I won't get into my feelings as this is about you not me. I think that you should accept your love for yourself and stop denying it, you will only end up disappointed. Trying to find another would be kind of like lowering your standards. Do not let people make you feel ashamed of it either, you aren't hurting anyone so it should not matter to them.

So, once again...just accept the love that you can give yourself and be happy. Most people are not so lucky and have to hope that their love will be returned but people like you and I just have to live and accept our own love. It isn't like you can reject yourself, that is unless you want to.

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