So, this is going to sound incredibly pathetic of me, but here goes. Sorry this is so long.
A couple of years ago, as a young woman in a frenzy of depression and loneliness, I became enamored with a, uh, with a videogame character. Yeah, I know. Thinking about this person, playing the games they're in, and drawing pictures gave me a good distraction from my stupid problems. Long story short, this character became a part of my conscious.
This year, I was courted by a boy in one of my classes, who started coming to my house to play Super Smash Brothers and Ocarina of Time and stuff with me. I liked him a lot. Eventually things escalated and he started coming over instead to make out.
Yesterday he asked me to be his girlfriend, and I said "sure", quickly, a little too quickly. As soon as I realized what I had said, my stomach lurched. After he left I vomited uncontrollably. I enjoy kissing and cuddling and stuff, but...
I feel like I'm being a bad girlfriend. Any moment I'm not around my boyfriend I don't think of him at all, if I think anything romantic or sexual, it concerns the love who's not real. As soon as I'm around him, though, I never want him to leave. (However, when we do anything, I can't help but sometimes imagine him to be my more familiar person...)I know it's bad of me to be an adult and have an imaginary friend, and I should move on to having a real relationship...but is it okay of me to live in my little fantasy world when he's not around..? Or should I just stop completely?
Well I totally wrote this in word and copy pastaed it into here and now it's all fucked up. Greaaat. Sorry, guys.
Wow. I don't know, i sometimes escape to the fantasy world..but more story like and not "imaginary friend like"..so i don't know what's up with that. I guess if it feels good and you like it,sure. But if it screwes up your real life friends(boyfriends,etc..) then you should do something about it. It can be unlearned, and eventually you would be thinking like.."what the hell was i doing?".
I quit the fantasy world years ago..but i recently started again because of some emotional problems in my life, but when i'm healed i'll will unlearn again.
well talk to him about it... he should be able to understand you
since your imaginery friend was from a few years back... maybe you just need more time to get over it.
Besides playing video games with the character in it.. what else do you do?
well i think you're as least okay fine, if you know your imaginery friend... is just imaginery!!! lol. As least you know what is .. and what isn't real.
And about thinking about your boyfriend when he's not around you... well you have a life too, and your life doesn't necessarily have to revolve around him!
He knows, oh he knows.
(When I first met him he was drawing a picture of a character from the same series, and I called him by the name of the character as a joke. However, I didn't learn his real name until months later, and by then I was already used to calling him by the nickname. Now my whole family knows him by the name of a videogame character, lol.
Thing is, said videogame character is the mortal enemy to the one I'm all lovelove over; kind of ironic how I ended up with the exact opposite of what's in my mind.)
Besides playing the game, ahh...I have him as the wallpaper on every electronic device I have, there are many, many, many pictures on the wall next to my bed (which the boyfriend likes to cover with sticky notes, lol), and I regularly sleep with an article of clothing of his I made. If I don't have the article or some kind of pillow to hug and cuddle with and pretend it's him, it can get difficult to sleep.
Of course I do the whole masturbation thing too; going to sound test and running through all his sounds can get me to orgasm quickly...playing as him is incredibly arousing for me, aaand there's a scene in one of the games in which he does something that caters directly to my fetish, so that helps a lot too.
Also, thanks people, you've actually made me feel better about this. Still pathetic, but at least I'm not one of those people who's convinced my imaginary lover is real and shit like that.
Don't feel good about this...you ARE REALLY WEIRD. I mean seriously, this is strange. Are you...in love with Link?
Seriously, OP, it stops becoming just a fun thing to help you get through your loneliness when it starts to affect your real life relationships.
(lol, is your boyfriend Ganon?)
Eh, It's not affecting it, though. Relationship is perfectly fine, I just feel really guilty for thinking about someone else on the side, especially since they're not real.
also
both of you have it perfectly backwards- switch the characters around, lol
>>8 OP just got way cooler in my eyes.
also, I'm sure as the relationship develops with your RL boyfriend, the guilt will fade. As long as fantasies are just fantasies, then no harm come to anyone.
GANON?! YOUR IN LOVE WITH FUCKING GANON?! Jesus...
This is somewhat the same problem a girlfriend and I are having.
In short, I'm constantly incredibly paranoid about whether or not she is being sincere to me or to her fantasies.
Please, be more sincere to him.
Also - I'm Ganon, I think, and she wants a Link-type, I think. But I am also Link sometimes. I contain both of them, and I'm not always sure what she is trying to get at. Shit is INCREDIBLY complicated. Fuck. I could write a dissertation on how confused I am around her.
But that's normal, right? Yeah, that guys are just divisions between good and bad. It would be that simple, if and ONLY if, I wasn't Link in my own fantasies. There is the ultimate problem. And if I try to be 'myself', she ridicules me for it... Yet entertains Link-like fantasies still??
Fuck anyway I'm glad we have this Link metaphor going. It's much more detailed than "Nice guy".
>>14
he has a gigantic nose the size of a tanker
Reading this thread and seeing that someone like the OP does exist only makes me more depressed. Overwhelming loneliness ho!
You like Ganon but have a Link-boyfriend? Jeebus, what I wouldn't give to have Link for a boyfriend.
So, what you should do is give your boyfriend to me and then we'd all be happy. At least I wouldn't have to find me a Ganon-boyfriend. Or maybe I should and then we can switch off.
So, I, uh, I broke up with him. It got to the point where being around him, talking to him or even thinking about him made me physically ill.
But I feel completely better around him now that we're not officially dating. We're still doing everything we did before. I guess I have a problem with the whole girlfriend/boyfriend thing, don't think it has anything to do with anything else.
......oh god, I'm so happy I can go back to jacking off while playing Twilight Princess. Oh so happy.
I lol'd so hard
Well played OP
>>19 Are you really the OP?
Oh, yup, my bad, forgot to establish that.
LOL OP
that would actually be kind of hot
...Yeah...
'cause, you know, when Ganondorf pulls the sword out of his stomach or when he's riding the horse or when you fight him or when he turns into Ganon or when he gets his neck snapped or just when you see him at all......
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