i think i'm doing a little better today. early this morning i ate some cherries. bought something small for my dinner at work, for later.
i think if i see her online tonight, i'm gonna just tell her some things that've been bugging me. how bad i feel for forgetting her birthday. how bad i feel for drinking around her, when i could tell she didn't like my drunken company. that i shouldn't have told her i loved her before i actually did (though i fell for her just weeks later). and i wish i'd gotten to spend more time out of the week with her. thats all i can think of right now. these things are just gonna keep bugging me until i actually say it to her. think this might be a bad idea?