I don't often think of myself as maladjusted, but I'm 21 now and I still haven't met a girl I'd really want to take out on a date. I seriously don't want to take the effort of asking out someone I see as a friend just because of my rampant libido which is much easier to get rid of with my right hand. Plus, if I did ask someone out I'd feel dishonest, and I know they'd be able to sense that. I've gotten to first base only on a blind date, and to second base only when I was drunk.

I think I'm missing some essential bit of the dating process. I do find people attractive-- just not so much that I see someone and say "I'm going to marry that girl." I do have the capacity to love, but only if someone wants to receive my love. I do want a relationship, but not with anyone I know in particular.

Sometimes I wish I could just set up an arranged marriage, but it seems most Americans aren't interested in that kind of thing...