sigh this will be the last time I talk to you.
You are kind of sad, anon. I hope that you will address whatever life experiences forced you to become so jaded one day. It really isn't healthy to be so single minded.
What really makes me mad is that you dismiss everything I say as nonsense, that i'm simply being "immature".
"Maturity is a psychological term used to indicate that a person responds to the circumstances or environment in an appropriate and adaptive manner. This response is generally learned rather than instinctual, and is not determined by one's age. Maturity also encompasses being aware of the correct time and place to behave and knowing when to act with appropriate emotion for the situation."
Anon, I don't know who you are, or what made you so completely defensive and overly opinionated. But you have to remember, that you are a flawed human just like all the rest of us here. I'm not trying to argue with you, i'm trying to reason with you, to gain your knowledge and experience and use it in my own situation and perhaps give you a sense of self-worth for doing so.
I think you fell in love hard, and it wasn't returned. But instead of taking the best from it as is and moving on, you still hold on to it firmly, and it affects your decision-making. Perhaps you should open those old wounds and find out whats festering deep inside. I'm doing the same, and trying to figure out why exactly I think about this girl so much, even though she doesn't care for me in the same way. Maybe she was unsure about her own feelings. Maybe i'm using her as a buffer for my own self-esteem. Maybe I just don't care whether or not she loves me back, my feelings won't go away. Hard to say, honestly. But we can't move forward unless we address whats holding us back. No matter what the consequences.
Please anon, don't let what happened in the past affect what can happen in the future. Life has too much to explore to be so narrow and bleak. I wish you all the best, man.