Hello everyone, I am a tall,shy,african american Otaku who is slighty eccentric male who lives in eastern america. lately for last 4 years i have felt so out of place in my life.In lousisiana everyone hated me, except when i was giveing answers to tests(I only did that to keep from getting beaten up).Thats why im am shy/overly appologetic now because i The guys used to hate me because i did'nt act "black".They said my anime obssesion was just dirty cartoons, because the only anime they knew of was Dragon ball z. Girls at my school told me things like "sorry J#N i need a man that can beat my ass."(matbe my reason for my porn addiction)At homeI was still useful to my mother,and my younger brothers still listened tome In texas I had lots of friends, but now in my new state I feel I only have friends by association, because the guy i follow is outgoing and has a different girlfriend every month.My mothers house looks like shit and my little brothers run amok.My mind seems to slip and i feel like im getting dumber and by the day.And i'm starting to hear voices,the only way to drown them out is with anime or V.games.So can anyone tell me how i get a girlfriend, get my brothers to listen to me and improve my life.