Try an anger management class. ^^
You NEED professional help.
Even if you're afraid you might do something stupid while with a therapist, you still need to go try. They're trained to deal with those types of situations, so the best thing you can do is tell him/her up front that you're afraid of getting violent during sessions.
This seems like way too big of a problem for you to deal with on your own, so you really should seek someone out. Your alcohol dependency will only exacerabte your anger issues, so it's extremely important that you begin to wean yourself away from that dependency. Groups like AA have good reputations, but i haven't ever gone to any of them, so I can't reccomend it first hand.
Before anything, however, definitely make youself go to a therapist. If you're already physically lashing out at people, especially those you care about, then you need help immediately.
>>3's right
Alcohol addiction is a disease which requires professional help.
You don't heal from cancer on your own through sheer willpoer, and same goes for alcohol addiction,... Consider this, alcohol already seriously damaged your life when you tried to face it alone, so why not trying a different spproach?
stop bein a jerk
light stuff... "vodka" haha
next someone says that alcohol is not a drug.
Hi OP,
I have a pretty similar situation, except with anxiety rather than anger (that is, i drank to fall asleep + it gave me relief whether I was alone, or [especially] in groups of people). You need to get help. I already have two DWIs under my belt at age 24. I got both of these the day after a binge, when I hadn't been drinking for at least 12 hours, and I still managed to pull over the legal limit twice. I've quit multiple jobs, lost most of my friends, and haven't been able to finish a bachelor's degree thanks to something that i originally thought would help me. I have a therapist which helps a lot, and as for AA, you have to check out a lot of different groups, to find the one you like. Alcoholics are just like other people in the world in the sense that they are all different people. If you go to a bunch of different meetings, eventually, you will find a group of people that you can get along with. The biggest issue I usually have with AA is the God factor. A lot of groups might try to ram it down your throat, but be patient, and eventually, you'll find one where there are people who don't care what you believe, as long as you believe in trying to get better (all that was assuming that, like me, you aren't religious). It is really hard, but you will come out better in the long run if you start doing it. When I began to take it seriously, I went from a straight F student (through the fact that i didn't complete any of the work, because i was either too drunk or too hung over to) to getting a 4.0 last semester.
Good Luck OP.
Vodka is pretty light. Try drinking a bottle of Wild Turkey 101 Proof vs a bottle of Finlandia.
>>8
Bourbon is pretty light. Try drinking a bottle of Everclear 190 Proof vs a bottle of Wild Turkey.
turtles attacking.....
smile, but carefully...
>>9
Everclear is pretty light. Try drinking a bottle of 100% pure ethanol from the science labs at school vs a bottle of Everclear.
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Just a tip, OP. Don't let your anger get the best of you. I was at a cafe once and was talking with somebody about shit. Some tosser two tables down overheard and disagreed with me, I guess. He stepped up, tried to fight, screaming about how he'd crush my rib cage with his fist. Long story short I knocked him out in one hit in front of about 40 people.
Drink more I guess. It's what I do.