Ok here's an update. After college today I don't want to leave home again. I struggled all day not to cry (and only just managed it) but I just can't take the stress of the working - ie. working hard and still failing. One of my biggest fears is not being good at something, and right now I suck at my course.

Everything is building up and I don't know what to do, I'm only 17 for God sake, give me a break. I want to be happy again, not have to fake confidence because deep down I know I'm losing my touch, be able to stand talking without needing to close my eyes to hold the tears back.

I just want to live.