So recently I started to cut myself... I really don't feel alive anymore....I wanna die...I think nobody cares anymore....I think I'm dying inside, as though my world is ending.................................
-There is only one world
-If you live for others to care about you then you don't deserve to live
-Whatever you do, do it for yourself
-Lover yourself over anything else
-Don't be a victim of self-pity
-If you behave like a victim people will treat you like a victim
kill yourself... That's what others would say.
I mean society is a very cold place but you should not embrace that coldness.
Instead, you should fight against it...
Ask a question to yourself, why do you cut yourself instead of killing yourself?
Is it because you still want to live? Why are you posting this despite the fact that you want to kill yourself?
It's because you still have will to live, or else you would have killed yourself long time ago.
So live on and don't look for self-pity from the others, instead help the people like yourself because you know the feeling of the coldness so you are the one who is most suitable for helping others like you.
I hope this post makes you understand about yourself.
>>1 I love you. With all my heart. Please dont die, because that would be real shitty.
Put the blade down. Get help. Cutting won't solve anything. For most people there is a way out of misery if they just ride it out and get help.
>>1 You seem like you're still in high school, therefore 'I have a few points for consideration. 1) You'll grow out of it. 2) People change after HS, including you. 3) Read up on how to be more sociable/social networking, and put those ideas to use 5) Cutting only emotionally and physically damages a person, and self-destruction/self-harm is retarded. Speaking from experience. 6) Talking down to yourself is the worst thing you can do. Always think of yourself as a work in progress, not a final project, and think of what you can do next/improve next.
I like to see myself more as a god...
It makes me feel good about myself.
You talk big on the internet!
Cutting yourself makes you feel pain and makes you feel alive. There is no other feeling then taking the blade across your skin and the blood pouring out. That feeling is only finite though and it makes you keep doing it. That feeling is finite also. The only way to feel alive in a life full of the want for death is to suffer. I know but I don't know your pain and why you want to not live. Everyone has that right. To keep living will be more suffering unless you eventually find joy. Some find this joy while others still suffer. Someday you will find joy and I happiness. Someday you will lust for life instead of death. Eventually you will die like all of us. You have the control over your life but think about the others who love you and don't want you to die. Think about what death will solve. Think about death.
>>1 Get into philosophy. Seriously, the questions might make your life seem more worth it. Not only that, but it changes your perspective on the world and all things experiential. I've only barely scratched a bit more than its surface and my worldviews have been revolutionized in an amazing way.
When I first cut myself...... I used a razor blade....the first cut wasn't the deepest I could possible make but I did bleed....I felt something I hadn't felt in a long time...as though life itself came back.......I hid the cuts at first....I wore my favorite black jacket....but now I don't care who sees the scars....I want the whole world to see....as if that'll happen.....They'll probably won't notice.......
To be more precise, any degree under the entire arts umbrella is for people who can't handle simple maths.
Prince George Virginia
true dat
Fuck you, if I wanted to put virginia in there it would be VA you moron!
>>15
Interdisciplinarity doesn't exist
I still can't handle simple maths though :(
Volunteer. Even if you do a shitty job of whatever it is you volunteer to do, it'll tickle the reward center of your brain in such a way that you'll lose interest in self-cutting. You'll feel awkward and self-conscious at first, but that'll go away as soon as you find a routine to slip into.
I could drop some psychobabble BS about humans' ancestry as social creatures, but I'll just say it's more or less guaranteed to work, cheaper than drugs, and doesn't leave embarrassing scars.
Keep cutting until you feed the need to stop.
That is the only thing you'll do then listen to any of us.
>>20 That is known as the "Society Cure", work your ass off but still feel miserable. BUT hey, you are contributing to society, "they" don't care if you feel like shit..just keep pumping that money. When you are too old to work, then by all means kill yourself so the government can steal your pension.
>>1 There's nothing I hate more than someone who starts something they can't finish.
Snap out of it, man. I've been through pretty tough times myself and have already been on the self-harm path. As someone with experience with it, my advice to you is to just stop now. Stop feeling sorry for yourself, stop damaging yourself, and start climbing back up. Your morale is the most important you have; without it you can't go on.
Find out what it is exactly that's screwing you up. Make a plan to combat and stick to it. The fact that you're using a computer suggests that you're not dirt poor, so use that to your advantage. In fact, use everything that you have to your advantage: it's yours to use and you damn well better use it.
Don't give up, and don't let the outside defeat you. Good luck.
>>1 Cliche? Maybe it sounds so, but Really, you've got to care for yourself no matter what anyone else thinks. Consider the case of those who have had families who rejected them and terrible histories with friends. Those who survive and become successful (not the same thing) are what kind of people? They are those who know their own value to themselves, and who can still critically analyze themselves. They are proud of who they are, yet not boastful, overconfident, or conceited. Aim for that.
>>22
I don't know, I was pretty screwed up in high school and it led to self-harm, but then I found something to fight for, and you know what, it helped. I guess you could say the revolutionary communist party saved my life.
If you kill yourself, then whos going to take your place at whatever you do best?
>>29
This may just be the most depression-inducing question to /personal/ lurkers
I'm not sure why it should be. The answer is simple, after all -- no one in this world is truly irreplacable. Anything a person can do, thousands of other people can do just as well, if not better.
If things were any other way, industrialized society would grind to an immediate halt.
>>33 As much as I agree generally with your statement. I have to disagree when it comes to the individual sense. Without individuals individual ideas would not be birthed, and even in the case of very similar ideas, they wouldn't be logistically implemented or used in the same ways.
tl;dr We're all specially useful.
>>Without individuals individual ideas would not be birthed, and even in the case of very similar ideas, they wouldn't be logistically implemented or used in the same ways.
But how many people truly produce original ideas? While I realize my sample size here is somewhat less than ideal, I know that I've never had an original idea worth mentioning.
Thus, we can't all be useful in that sense. At best, only most of us can be useful for the ideas we produce. There will always, I'd bet, be a statistically significant number of people who have nothing to distinguish themselves from other similarly-qualified indivuduals.
I'm always weary of replying to cutting threads because usually they're just trolls.
But if not, OP, stop while you still can. Cutting is not the answer to any problems. If only I could show you my arms and legs.
Sean?
I cut myself sometimes, too, but people I don't want to die. I only cut myself to get rid of the emotional pain. My advise to you is that try to find out why you cuy yourself, fix it, and then live a normal happy life.
( p.s. For those who think I should take my own advice I have and it just got me into a lot of trouble and caused me some more emotional pain)
ahmm don't die, i know i don't have that kind of a happy life too like others but don't other, i maybe optimistic, but i think i can
care for you, we could be friends..
add me in ym if you want, simple_assasin17@yahoo.com
But I'm suspicious that you may assassinate him...
Mra ha ha ha. If you're gonna kill yourself make sure it's gorey and near Virginia in the U.S.A. I want to hear about it ^^. I'm don't really care about anyone but myself, however, I pick up on things that interest me. I'll see you on the news if you die^-.
K-otaku, stop trying so hard to be cool. You aren't fooling anyone.
As someone who used to cut--TROLL!
>>44
Yeah, and this situation would require you to put sage in the link field.
i think they might have been claiming that they were themselves the troll.
>>1 hey hey. You can't die yet! Your World has not ended yet boy, cause your still alive! You know the old saying " everyone here on earth was born with a purpose". Let me tell ya, that's true! I mean, We are not born in this world just to kill ourself, right?!? Be confident in yourself! And stop cutting your hand! You might accidentaly cut it off wholly^^.
"Hold Fast to your Dreams"
yes I also cut myself it's because it seems to be the only way to remember my past. My fear is to forget.
>>48 Why are you afraid to forget? Sometimes it's good to forget.
>>You know the old saying " everyone here on earth was born with a purpose". Let me tell ya, that's true!
Sophomoric drivel spouted by people who cannot accept that the world is chaotic and indifferent.
OP, don't cut yourself. Cut others. Carry a boxcutter with you all the time, sharpen it, etc. Or get a lot of throwing knives.
Cutting thy flesh makes you feel alive. Damn I miss it. Feeling alive, you know?
>>50 I'm kinda glad that the world is like that, Death washes everything away and whatever you did won't matter...
I have the willpower and concentration to hurt myself deeply without cringing. The only thing that sucks is waking up the next morning in pain. I gotta fix that, then I can die without bother.
>>54
You don't wake up the next morning when you're dead.
>>50 I dunno what you just said, but I feel like it's far from a compliment
>>51 I thought you were here to help Doctor. guess not.
>>52 You'll feel alive once you find something to take your mind off your problems. (Besides alcohol and hurting yourself/others o course.)
>>53 It will matter. In Heaven.
>>54 You are one crazy man, you know that? Hurting yourself won't help you at all. DYING will surely won't help you at all. Find some kind of hobby that can help you be Happy!(except for rape, you will only end up in jail. Plus, they might rape you there. By other men...ouch.)
>>50-54 why are you all thinking negatively?!? Live life to it's fullest! Killing yourelf won't help at all. Everyone hate you? You're wrong! Pray to God! You know why he isn't answering your prayers? It's because he is waiting for the right time to HELP YOU! So don't give up faith in God and mostly YOURSELF.
Trust me. Everything will work out fine in the end.
"Never give up in God, cause he will never give up on you"
another one. Not everyone hates you. GOD LOVES US MORE THAN WE CAN IMAGINE.
I'm an atheist, so I can't say "god loves you so don't do it", but I can still say "don't do it, because there's nothing in the afterlife and that would be really boring." Death is nothing more than an eternal curse of boredom. So, savor your life while you've got it, and go out and do some crazy shit.
Pick up a hooker or something. Go to college if you haven't already. Hell, start building Gundam models. That'll eat up so much of your time you won't even think about doing anything shitty.
>>58 lol. I guess that's another way. Though it'll cost you a lot of money^^
You know what, fuck you OP. There are a group of people out there plotting to kill me over absolutely nothing and I'm not sitting at home pitying myself.
I'll probably be dead within a month or two and I'm living life to the fullest. You have the chance to live but you'd rather die because you're a pathetic shell of a person?
Wake the fuck up.
Death is no curse, it is the only thing that can free you humans from Hell and give you Peace.
Dr Seus, i am God and i'm just letting OP suffer because i enjoy it. Why not? Mankind is like a movie for me, no one loves Disney movies..we all want tragedy right? Oh there, let me kidnap that beautiful baby by a pedophile. There child soldiers. Go on ahead kill yourself. Cancer is on me, have fun! Dammit these humans enjoy their sex too much. I need something to aid me...hehe,aid..i will call it AIDS!
How can English suck God? I didn't think it had a mouth.
Death isn't an eternal anything. It's a full-stop end.
Technically, humans were the ones to coin the phrase "Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome", but whatever...
>>62 You just came here to bash these people who are looking for guidance(some of them, anyways)?! Why don't you just Fuck Off.
WAIT! Here's a better idea. I Hope that YOU die, not GOD.
rolls eyes