Hi

almost 22, only have highschool degree, since i was 20.

-> wasted 2years in nothing almost all the time at home doing nothing (call me NEET, Hikikomori or whatever)

But time has come.

Parents are gonna break up.

I don't want to work just so that i am able to buy food.

I will try to study at an university (i can get off from my parents).
If i fail, i will instantly make use of the option suicide.

Well all the odds are against me considering my degrees, my skills, my talents, my intelligence.