I don't know what happened to me, I'm not the same as yesterday
I got offended by a guy on a forum, I really didn't like the way he trated me, and now I'm crying, I don't know why I'm so hurt if I don't even know this guy and I didn't like him from the beginning, and the mods are not doing a fucking thing to stop him, though they're "my friends"
My mother's always in a bad mood, she's always telling me what to do, and she gives details carefully and repeats it as if I am retarded
also, in my family we're having problems with the car... I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING OF CARS, and I don't think I'll be able to drive it since I'm fucking stupid, so my brothers-in-law are always driving it, and this is bad because they're not in home always, and they always argue about the problems of the car, and they blame ME because I don't drive and I quit the driver's school BECAUSE MY MOTHER WANTED ME TO, why? they wanted me to go 1 hour per week, and my mother says that way I'll not learn anything, oh! and it's expensive too, last lesson I got really stressed because the instructor treated me as if I'm retarded (hey, am I really retarded?)
last weekend was my birthday party (19!) I celebrated it at J's home (who the fuck is J? I'm the one who posted this http://4-ch.net/love/kareha.pl/1219385972/l50) and I screwed it all up because I got drunk, I singed like a fucking drunk (orly) and the mods of the forum I said got a bad impression of me, and I respect them and I wanted to give another impression---not the drunk girl that fights, break things, etc etc etc
I feel a kind of... sad and rage... I'm taking it out on the monitor... this way I'll break it
I'm thinking of leaving it all, leave my friends, the society, etc and becoming a hikikomori or suicide... that wouldn't be a surprise, my father and my brother commited suicide too
1) The internet is not IRL. Do not take it seriously.
2) Move out. Get a jorb.
3) You can study the rules of the road and take the written and driver's test without going to driver's school(where I am at least). Once you get your license, read the car's manual cover to cover and teach yourself to do some basic things, like jumping the battery and changing the oil.
1) I don't have a life
2) moving? with what money? I forgot to tell I live in Argentina and I didn't graduate from high school
3) I can't, in Argentina you have to take a written test and a practical test, and I don't have the manual since it's secondhand, and the former owner lost it
How old is your mom? She might be going through menopause so that's gonna affect her mood greatly.
If you're having problems with the car, try to see what's wrong with it, like what kind of noises it's making(or not making)or any other things that seem off and post your problems on a board where there are auto experts.
I think that the internet e-thug got to you because of all these problems that you're experiencing and all that stress just kept piling up. My guess is that you just snapped, so don't take what the guy said too seriously. I think you should just take a break. Since you live in Argentina, I'm sure you can go take a trip to the mountains and get some r&r
You shouldn't be concerned about what people who don't even know you say.
Chill out. Talk to someone, e-friends maybe?
seems like your a stupid person!
>>4 my mom is 56 years old, she's menopausic since 40
I can't go to the mountains because I live in Buenos Aires, not in Bariloche or Mendoza
are you hyper sensitive to criticism? It can manifest online too. Judging from your low self esteem and your self conscience attitude, i think you suffer from a personality disorder (i think alot of people here do). I'm just saying because i suffer from avpd (avoidance personality disorder) and you got the signs.
Well whatever, if you want information on it , google. As for your problem, just bite through the pain. I know lousy advice, since i'm in the same deep shit.
a lot of people told me that so... but I don't trust in psychologist... my brother and my dad went to the psycologist a lot of years and it didn't help at all
>>8
Fuck you and your "personality disorders", I mean come on EVERYONE has a fucking problem on this planet and just because some dumbheads invent words to qualify some problems, "oh you have 28% ADHD, have a mild high functional form of aspergers" and BLAH BLAH BLAH and what's worse next? OH I KNOW LET'S GOOGLE SOME DISORDERS AND SELF-DIAGNOSE OURSELVES CAPS LOCK FOR EMPHASIS ON HOW MUCH THIS MAKES ME ANGRY.
Yeah, stupid people make me angry, but I guess you've got a "disorder" to qualify that?
OP, seems to me judging from this thread and your other one that you're just trying too hard at everything. Stop thinking that much, stop thinking you're having it hard, be cool. Seriously. CHILL OUT. I'm not telling you to listen to reggae and smoke pot, just when you see you're going overboard over something you just tell yourself "okay, stop. Do I have a roof over my head? Do I have something to eat on my table everyday?", and such things.
May sound stupid but honestly, it looks like you're living your life like you have 2 millions spectators watching your show and ready to vote you out at any second. Honestly, no one cares but you - take control.
>I'm thinking of leaving it all, leave my friends, the society, etc
If you're thinking on doing this it's because like the song says People = Shit, but you're a bit too young for misanthropy and for now are just blaming your mistakes on other people/things. Stop hitting your monitor you fool, these things cost money.
>and becoming a hikikomori
Sorry doesn't work like this and GODDAMN FUCKING HIKKOKOMORI WORD I HATE YOU.
>or suicide... that wouldn't be a surprise, my father and my brother commited suicide too
That's some bad antecedents... but again, don't let other's choices and decisions affect YOUR life and worse, don't USE them as an excuse not to make your own.
tl;dr: OP isn't a bad person to the bone but should start handling her life and taking responsability for her actions and stop blaming other persons for her problems and stop being immature; in short: GROW THE FUCK UP.
>I don't know what happened to me, I'm not the same as yesterday
You could write a song about it.
Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
I'm not half the man I used to be
Stupid people make you ANGRY? WOW YOU MUST BE ANGRY ALL THE TIME SEEING HOW STUPID YOU ARE! stupid stupid man!