>>3
I was thinking that the other possible reasons why I'm like this is either I'm embarrassed about my body, the way my genitals look, or the fact that I don't know how to sex or I never feel comfortable enough to enjoy it and throw everything off from my mind. As I've noticed that during any sexual activity I don't seem to be able to relax 100%, there's always some kind of tension that keeps my thoughts random and I guess I don't know how to feel myself free.

I've figured as well that maybe I am like this because I've had sex while being drunk (who hasn't, seriously), which might be the source of not wanting to have sex while sober, as it feels different while being little drunk and its easier to go all crazy then. Oh god, I don't know! I will call the therapist again next Monday and make myself an appointment!

THANK U >>3 i appreciate!