Every couple of months or so my mood switches from "yeah life's all good I'm enjoying it" to "MASSIVE ENDLESS VOID OF DESPAIR AND SELF-HATRED", and vice versa. Its such a massive contrast its as if a switch has been flipped, and sometimes I can barely even get out of bed I hate and fear the world around me so much. I can barely work at all. The good times are good, but the bad times are absolutely awful.
I'm a pretty hardcore wap (who isn't here on 4-ch?!), and spend most of my time watching anime, reading manga, and playing Visual Novels. Its just when the bad mood comes into effect I tend to have a reality check that I have no real friends and I spend my life in a 2D world devoid of human contact, and I hate myself for it. Which of course makes me withdraw into it even further. I'm neither fat nor ugly.
Its been this way for years now, and I can't take it anymore.
I need to fill the void in my life!
Have I got a mental condition which I can have medication ascribed to me for?
Sorry I couldn't contribute a non-emo/happy/non-self-despairing/non-weeaboo thread, but I thought you guys may have some ideas. At this point I simply have no idea how to get back on track and enjoy my life. I say I'm lonely but for the majority of the time I can't stand human contact, and when I'm not feeling numb and apathetic regarding it, its every negative emotion assualting me at once.
I know how you feel.
Honestly, there are things people could suggest for you... but if you're like me (and you seems like you are) you probably won't or can't do them.
Forget about people, you don't need them. Try to be more social and immerse youself in clubs/activities to meet people with similar intrests. Try to look for people with the same intrests on dating sites and whatnot. Try to talk to people online. Try to improve your image to enhance your self confidence.
I've tried all those things and more. Sure, it helped somewhat, but not much in the long run.
I'm sure a lot of those things might help if you really tried, but I honestly have some kind of mental block. Maybe they'll work for you. I think drugs won't help you with anything, though.
a/s/l? Maybe we can meet up. Though, while I'm saying this I'm (not so) secretly hoping you live nowhere nearby, being the non-social person I am.
>I think drugs won't help you with anything, though.
Indeed. Don't hope for a magic pill to get you out of your hole.
So what is your deam scenario? If you could go out and meet people, What would you be doing with them? Tell us an average and a great day of your perfect and fulfilling life, that would be a good starting point ^^
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>mental block
Thats exactly how it is for me. Sure I have "internet friends", but talking to some text on your screen which you can ignore whenever you want is a lot easier than RL. My asl is 21/m/southern UK if that is of any use.
My perfect day.... now thats a tricky one. I'd say just lazing around doing my own stuff through the day then in the evening hanging around with a few mates, with no pressure to perform or be funny or interesting, and just having a few drinks and a chat and doing something fun where I'm not ignored or a tag-along. Obviously that isn't going to happen, but honestly these days I'm not even sure what I would enjoy.
Sorry to whine like this, it's not all that bad. When I'm feeling ok with myself I'm fine being a loner, hell, I love it! The fact of the matter is now and then all the stuff that accumulates from being so withdrawn I guess just takes over for a while and makes me feel like crap.
I've cheered up a lot since I made this thread... I guess my own conclusion would be just to weather through to bad times because I do prefer my lifestyle as a loner. If it makes people see me as a loser or a social retard, then fuck them. I like my own company better than any of them.
>>4 So why don't you find people in your area with the same interests as yours (anime, manga, visual novels)? If you did you could meet up to watch/play something and have some good time. It's does not strike me as an improbable scenario,...
>Sure I have "internet friends", but talking to some text on your screen which you can ignore whenever you want is a lot easier than RL.
...exactly. Get out of my goddamn head!
Have any of them ever asked you to meet up? I've had it happen to me, but I always end up shaking them off for various reasons.
>My asl is 21/m/southern UK if that is of any use.
Hehe, even a different continent. Guess I (not so) secretly hoped too hard. :p
>My perfect day.... now thats a tricky one. I'd say just lazing around doing my own stuff through the day then in the evening hanging around with a few mates, with no pressure to perform or be funny or interesting, and just having a few drinks and a chat and doing something fun where I'm not ignored or a tag-along.
Yeah, I think that would be awesome as well.
>So why don't you find people in your area with the same interests as yours (anime, manga, visual novels)? If you did you could meet up to watch/play something and have some good time. It's does not strike me as an improbable scenario,...
I don't think just having the same interests would be enough. There are various types of people who like anime, and to various degrees. Unfortunately the people who would be best at understanding are probably also behind computer screens, or too shy/quiet to say anything in real life.
>I don't think just having the same interests would be enough.
But it's a good start, because you can share a lot.
>Unfortunately the people who would be best at understanding are probably also behind computer screens, or too shy/quiet to say anything in real life.
Well, you said it yourself:
>There are various types of people who like anime, and to various degrees.
Go for those that go out. They exist, you can be assured,...
I just want to live alone in some remote countryside with a wife and kids.
>>10 Just make sure your wife and kids share your tastes, which is not a given
And another wap steps in the conversation...
As for myself, I'm also subject to mood swings. They are, for the main part, caused by too much stress (job, exams, studies, etc...). I found that the best method to relieve it is to do something that will empty my mind.
Some relaxing activies I enjoy are: listening to music and cooking. I think their benefits come from their repetitiveness, as when chopping vegetables or listening to trance/techno.
Thanks guys, you've been helpful. I have made a friend with the same interests recently, who surprisingly is not a horrendous fat neckbeard and is fairly normal. I think I might try and nurture that relationship...
I've calmed down a lot since I made this thread, I think I've sorted everything out for now.
>cooking
heh, I'll try that.
>Just make sure your wife and kids share your tastes
what? somehow I don't evisage a family all playing h-games.
>Have any of them ever asked you to meet up?
We all agree we'd probably hate each other IRL.
Anyway guys, thanks again.