Every single woman I've met has always hurt me in someway or another. I've always been single but my female friends have always been an asshole to me to some degree. When I called them on it, they said it was just in good fun but I hated them for it and usually cut things off from there. Sometimes they were overly nosy, trying to peek into my past when I told them it was none of their business and they would use our friendship as a manipulative ploy to gouge info out of me. Or some would string me along, pretending to show interest in me then ditch me.
These days sometimes I get the "fuck me" look from women but I don't want anything to do with them. Sometimes I even get downright angry and want to curse them out or get abusive with them since they're too cowardly to tell me what they want and will instead resort to intentionally deceptive half-assed signals.
Im sorry to hear OP that this has happend to you and you feel like this about wimmins. But I sure hope that one day a nice girls will change your mind :)
OP, your experience is heart wrenching, but I see only two possibilities: 1) you are very unlucky (I have consistently met women who are great people). 2) you have an attitude problem that causes you to always feel the victim of some ploy hurdled by the other nasty people.
I think the second option is the most probable. If that's true, then things will only get better once you change your attitude, not when you meet some nice girl. Because you have so much contempt, mistrust and bad faith in women that any sane one will keep at bay from you, leaving only the dysfunctional and abusive accessible to you. Love is a difficult matter, and even among good people one gets hurt. But it's very important to take your responsibilities for what happens and not just blindly lay the blame on others, otherwise one ends up like you, bitter and morally diminished.
If by love you mean romantic love, then that's not really what burns me save my being used and abused by gutter trash, since right now I couldn't care less about romance.
What really gets me is that I've just been abused by women in matters of platonic love, though naturally that must also entail that I could never trust someone in romantic love either. For example, I'm not Prince Charming but I'm not hideous either and so I include really hot chicks within my hopes of fucking. But some of my snarky female "friends" who witness this make fun of my hopes, saying that I'll never get anywhere, or simply insult my appearance and when I tell them to shut up, they say I'm just mad because they insulted my appearance, because of course that's not insulting in itself.
Or other times I've been generally minding my own business and sit down next to a random girl while waiting for class, not intending to start a conversation with her but just because I don't feel like sitting at the other seat. She gets up and sits in the empty solitary seat on the other side of the room.
Finally the worse cases come when sometimes female friends stop talking to me entirely. I'll see them randomly and they'll look at me briefly like I'm a stranger then say nothing or just won't acknowledge me period.
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OP, what you actually need to do is not attempt to stick around women that think they're superior to any being on earth. This includes women that think they're models, tramps with stamps, general skanks, one-night stands, and those women that leave you in the friend zone because you're a good friend and they can talk to you about how their abusive boyfriend is a complete asshole to them but they won't leave because they're too stupid.
Find a woman with an actual brain and get to know her really well before attempting anything.
In the case of the one girl getting up and sitting across the room, she probably didn't want to even think about initiating conversation. For what reason is her own but don't blame yourself.
A lot of women think that all men are pigheaded assholes that do nothing all day but think with their stomachs and/or penises.
>>4 From what you describe you really seem to have some attitude problem, if you think even complete strangers ostensibly avoid you. I doubt this is an looks problem, unless you actually stink or look threatening or totally unkempt. So maybe you are paranoid (the girl could have sat on the other side of the room simply because she's shy), or more likely your behavior feels repulsive to women (and perhaps even to men?).
Why don't you ask some friend you trust about what they think? Maybe it's more obvious to them than to you? Also, I would give up on friends who insult you on a regular basis, I don't see the point of those kinds of "friendships". Save your time and energy for people who respect you
>>4 I agree with the others in reference to the girl moving to the other side of the room. I, personally, would feel the urge to move away if any stranger, male or female, sat next to me.
I feel that the main thing to do is to change your attitude. I've been experimenting with that myself, and people really do treat you how you treat them. Though if that still doesn't work and they can't read the atmosphere, just cut off your ties with them. It's better to keep friends who try to actually understand you. But most of all, make sure that you are putting forth effort as well to understand them before giving up.