Hi. I was laid off from my job during the summer of last year after only working there for two and a half months. Eventually I had to break my apartment lease and move in with family. Since then I have been looking for work doing everything I can. Pounding the pavement, posting my resume online, going to job training classes through my church, going to companies that help people with disibilities (I have Aspergers Syndrome) find jobs, and going to job fairs. But nothing. Still I didn't give up despite the dissapointment.
I did recently get a part time/ volunteer job for my church's employment center but it's only eight hours a week. After much trial I found a flower shop holding an opening for a part time position. I applied using the training from the employment center and frankely the owner was impressed and gave good comments on the questions I asked her after the interview. I stopped in the next week to see if she filled the position. She had not but said I was sweet for showing interest in the position.
Then recently I got a phone message from her telling me she had filled the position but thanks me for stopping in and said she enjoyed talking with me and said she would keep my resume on file and mentioned she has a lot of events in the summer and may call me back as an extra hand.
Honestly I believe she is mocking me and I just know she will not call me. At this point I want to just give up and forget all my dreams. I wanted to write a book since I have been told I am a good writer but frankely I think my ideas are horrible now. I mean if I can't even get a job where the interview goes well then what worth am I? Frankely I think I am a 22 year old money drain on my family. Am I just overeacting?
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Well, I guess you didn't want such a short answer, so I'll go into detail. Honestly, I can't really empathize with you(seeing how i don't have asperger's) but I do sympathize with you. You're in a pretty poor situation, but the only thing right now for you to do is not give up. Right now, alot of people are suffering in various amounts; some more, some less, so just remember that you're not alone and alot of people are in the same boat as you. I don't think she was mocking you, and that part you may be just overreacting, but just don't get discouraged. Also, since you have some free time, you should just write or something.
like >>2 says. It's easy to lose self esteem when you're having difficulties finding a job and having to face a lot of rejection, but you should not let that get at you. There are many reasons for you to have an hard time besides being worthless. If you always use your selfworth as explanation, you'll have an hard time.
Also, you need to develop a thicker skin, if you want to become a writer, because rejection is a big part of it. Every writer had to face it, even the most successful. Actually, every once and a while someone has fun sending manuscripts from famous writers, and see how editors react. Great writers like Jane Austen have been rejected, so you're in good company when you are rejected.
What you need to realize is that it's not just a question of worth, but very much of spirit. You need willpower, resilience and connections to make it, not just talent. So don't bring everything to considerations of worth. You have just not yet found the opening you need.
lood luck! its hard to get job everywhere nowadays! just keep on doing wht you are and keep on applying, im sure one day you'll click it! :3
I know how you feel, job searching is so god damn depressing.
She's mocking you at all, but don't be surprised if she doesn't follow up. If you apply again in the summer, I'm sure your persistence will pay off. But that sounds alot like seasonal work, so you might be out of work again in the fall.
You do need a job now and not later, so I'd recommend applying somewhere that will take just about anyone... whether it's ditch-digger or janitor or wal-mart greeter, it all looks better than a gap in your employment history and keeps your mind active and out of that rut.
Remember you've got to apply everywhere you can, because nine in ten places won't even acknowledge that you've submitted a resume.
If it's part time, then you have time to search for a better job or improve your wordsmithing skills.
Don't move back out until you've officially made it past your evaluation period.