I have been having a very hard time recently being able to keep myself focused at work. It has gotten to the point where when I am in my office, I will shut my door, turn off the lights, and sit in my office all day terrified that I won't be able to do my job. And no smart comments saying, "Well, if you're in your office with the lights off, of course you can't get your work done."
I am so busy at work that I am completely overwhelmed, I start doubting myself, my abilities, and end up frozen in fear that I can't do my job.
I am an IT manager for Television station, but the only thing I manage are the assets/systems. I don't have a staff, and I am supporting about 250 systems. I need to find a way to be able to focus and organize myself to be able to take care of the work I need to do.
I don't know what to do.
>Do you know what a pain it is to knock the shit out of someone on the first day of school who opens their god damn mouth to you? It was getting to be a real pain year after year. And the fuckers STILL picked on me and shit.
Been there, done that (once threw someone into the cactus garden, also I was hyper aggressive at the beginning of the year).
>Yes people want to be loved, but loving someone else makes a person at their most vulnerable, which is the one of the points the OP was trying to make.
Yep, love involves vulnerability, so you need some judgment about who to get involved with.
>I only now (at 35) am finally getting to where I trust other people, but they always will be at arms length.
Well, shows you are on the pathway to recovery. So your discourse does not make sense: you can't love or be loved by what you hate. Hating humanity is self-harmful, pointless and displaced.
>Plus, I WILL make sure my kids are not bullied in school either.
And how do you plan to achieve that? And does any of that apply to you? Should they also hate humanity?
Dang, ignore >>2, posted on the wrong thread. As penance, I also answer to you ^_^
Have you tried to apply some systematic methodology to your work patterns? Reading about Getting Things Done (GTD) might be a good place to start: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Getting_Things_Done
You seem to lack organization and have reached panic stage. There are solutions to your problems, you just need to try them.
Well, how old are you? This could be a mid-life crisis you know? In which case I'd suggest you to live it to it's fullest and buy the car, house, boat, you always wanted. Do the trip you always wanted!
If you're not feeling motivated and if you can't focus... It is just because it doesn't interest you anymore, so... I think you should first try to understand if there is a reason for you not to care anymore about your job... If you can't find a reason just take a few days off and do whatever.
That is... if you can, or if you know you'll be able to get another job that'll satisfy your needs.
Which reminds me... Why don't you just change your job? Don't force yourself, try new things out.
I'm at work right now, and I gotta use the bathroom, but can't, because I'm the only one in the store.
MUST... HOLD IN... POOP... FOR 2 MORE HOURS...
HRRRRRNNNNNNNNGGG
Let's expose corporate crime in English!
http://awabi.2ch.net/test/read.cgi/english/1331150932/3
3 名前：名無しさん＠英語勉強中[] 投稿日：2012/03/08(木) 15:34:59.66
"Watami Co., Ltd.," formerly called as "Watami Food Service Co., Ltd.," killed a young Japanese lady by violation of Labor Standards Act.
(ワタミ株式会社、かつてワタミフードサービス株式会社と呼ばれていた会社は、労働基準法違反で若い日本人女性を一人殺害しました。)
Ms. Mina MORI, who belonged to Watami, killed herself at the age of 26 in 2008, due to mental instability by excessive and illegal hard work.
The bereaved family claimed workers' compensation around four years ago. As a result, the examiner of Workers' Accident Compensation
Insurance officialy affirmed the petition, and the determination letter dated on Feb.14, 2012 says; "She could not afford holidays at all
because her overtime work is more than approx. 140 hours per month. We suppose that the main cause of her suicide would overtax by
excessive hard work."
A store manager and a careworker, both of who belonged to Watami, witness similar hard work and depose with evidences that Watami
violate the Labor Standards Act, especially constantly unpaid overtime work. If any of them were true, Watami commit organized crime.
～ News Sources (ニュースソース) ～
All of the following sources are written in Japanese only.
ワタミ社員の過労自殺を認定 入社２カ月の２６歳女性
http://www.47news.jp/CN/201202/CN2012022101001979.html
まるで現代版『ああ野麦峠』和民元店長が経験した修羅場 - 雑誌記事：@niftyニュース
http://news.nifty.com/cs/magazine/detail/asahi-20120229-01/1.htm
ワタミ反省の色なし！？ 自殺した女性の勤務内容について一切回答せず ／ 「遺憾」とした文書を削除 2012/02/25(土) 12:46:58 [サーチナ]
http://news.searchina.ne.jp/disp.cgi?y=2012&d=0225&f=national_0225_093.shtml
ブラックなのは居酒屋だけじゃない！ 「ワタミの介護」元職員が労災申請拒否を告発 - 日刊サイゾー
http://www.cyzo.com/2012/02/post_10000.html