I'm back to find some advice and to listen to people in the same situation as me... I'm suffering from derealization currently. I can stand it but it's so upsetting. Everything I do seems empty. I can't look at people and feel the same connections I used to feel, I can't feel that they like me or even dislike me. I'm feeling quite depressed because of that.

It's such a weird feeling, I have good news, I bought an electric bass and I've been playing it everyday, I've been making music with my boyfriend, which is now living with me. Everything is good! Or should be good. I'm finally being creative again and everything should be looking up but nothing feels real. It's bringing me to a point of desperation, this has to end soon. It has been lasting for a long time. Since November.

I can't enjoy the good things I have now. That's all. I'd like to listen to people who have had this and I'd like to learn how they overcame it.

Happy new year guys. Also, I'm decided to lose weight. This is important because I still hear voices from time to time and it's all because i'm chubby, what I hear is people commenting on my looks, and so I've been gathering strength to diet. It will be hard but I think I'll make it, I need to lose 10kg.

I'm still not going to school, but I'm going to take my driver's license soon, and this summer I'm planning on going on a road trip with my boyfriend. As you can see, everything seems to be looking up but it just doesn't feel real <tears>.

Goodbye.