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I would be interested in taking some sort of drugs if they helped. Not recreational drugs--that's something I've thankfully avoided. I used to take fluoxetine but it didn't do much. Would adderall work for me? Would I be able to get it if I asked, or even fake the symptoms of ADHD if need be? What other medicines might work for me?
>>3
Thank you for your advice. I know you're right of course and I need to be proactive, it's just difficult for me. If anything I'm likely to start caring about things, then stop after a few weeks or perhaps months. Good idea about asking for financial counselling, I hadn't really considered it. Thanks!
>>4

> How well can you program?

Unfortunately not very well. I know some C but can't use it very well, and a few higher-level scripting languages I've probably forgotten. The course taught Java which I picked up quickly, but after months of not using it I seem to have forgotten everything I didn't already know. I really doubt I would be able to help you, sorry.

>I would suggest forcing yourself to look for a job. Don't think you can't do it, just blindly apply.

I have no idea what to do though, and I don't think I can get a job. Even if I had gotten a job and I showed up, I don't think I would be able to do it. I don't know. I just can't see myself doing work like a normal person.