I'm not intending to incite further argument, but I tend to agree with >>13. I probably wouldn't have put it so bluntly, but I also share the same opinion that you should be able to look after yourself before you try to look after/start a relationship with someone else.

OP, a lot of what you've said within this thread is very contradictory. Maybe you should go back and re-read some of your posts. At some points you talk about being utterly dependent on her and being worried about being a pain to her, and then you deny being a burden to her and turn a full 180 degrees about your view on her.

To me, I just feel that you're going through a confusing time of your life, trying to discover yourself, and feel the need for a sense of belonging (which you think you would find in love). But I think at your age, these feelings are blown out of proportion, and it's important to realise this, and work on self improvement rather than staying fixated on this girl- whom you probably may or may not remember in a few years time.

Anyway. May I also suggest that you follow some of your own advice that you dish out for anon.

> Life has too much to explore to be so narrow and bleak.
> reevaluate some decisions in your life that are preventing you from seeing the whole picture