I know there are several threads before, so this keeps repeating, sorry for that^^.
Well after highschool (bad grades), i have been staying at home doing nothing. Just watching TV and go to the PC (Animes and mangas :)) to kill off time.
I have no interests in anything i think and also no skill in any subject. In High school i was always alone and had no friends.
Hahaha, i think there were some girls who were interested in me(only reason would be that i not that bad-looking ;)) , but i just ignored them.
My woman of dream would be a person similar to the girls/women in mangas/animes.
They look so perfectly beautiful. I can't imagine women exists in reality, so one thing is for sure. That i will stay a loner for me rest of my life( very hort one hopefully).
Even if there were such women, they won't get into contact with low-lifes like me. I wish i would be a character from a manga/anime.
So you can call me a loser or whatever :(
6 months have already past by now since i was going out of the arpartement.
It is just a matter of time, when my parents will kick me out.
For me there is no future.
I mean i wished like in the anime/manga NHK, there would be a woman beautiful and nice as Misaki, who would try to help me.
But this is just my imagination.
So i keep dreaming.
There are several option how i end up:
2.Being kicked out, nowhere to go nothing to eat, just starving or freezing to death
3. A miracle will happen, thus turning my life completely
options 1+2 -------> chances are about 99.99999%
option 3 ----------> almost 0 :((
Well there is story about a miracle of an otaku i think.
Densha otoku it is called. But such a thing would never happen to me, i don't want them to happen, cause it requires a person in danger!
I know i am a stupid pathethic moron with no life etc.
But can't help it.
Well, if your body is operational, and it looks like it is, you can still work.
Used to be people like you and me were forced to work if they wanted to eat. Now we can live cushy lives in our parents' houses eating their food and leeching off their electiricy/internet bills. I feel pretty lame. I'm either massively depressed, but don't know it, or just genuinely lazy. Both situations are really serious.
The worst part, is now that I have some money from a partime job, I don't dare spend it. Honestly that's the most depressing part.
Well the problem is, being a hikki means that you almost don't leave your house/room at all.
So for me going to work, and even to work with other people is a rather cruel vision.
A stupid question:
Are there (small)jobs, that can be done at home?
just how long have you been secluding yourself?
i dropped out of high school and went hikki for two years. just got back into college this year and i've finally realized some things.
although i do feel like a lonely loser most of the time, i try to motivate myself by giving myself a goal to work towards. in my case i realized that if i was going to hikki myself i'm not going to do it in the shithole of a country I'm in. a hikki requires his daily routine of easy access to necessities such as anime and porn and i'm sure as hell isn't getting it here in an overly conservative third world country.
thus to solve the situation i planned on getting into a foreign university, graduate and then proceed to find a way to be a hikkikomori forever in said foreign country. hopefully the degree would be a backup if the plan does not work out so i won't have to kill myself for being stupid, illiterate and poor.
i'm working hard to have no life, i can't help it either.
Well to put it this way:
In my whole life i was a loner :(
So i am 20 now, my High-School-degrees are just bad and i got no talents nor skills :(
My last step out of the apartement was about 6months ago.
Daily routine is:
Sleeping-Eating-Watching animes/mangas-surfing through the internet
That's it
Btw: personal hygiene is important for me, sound a bit weird but i want to keep up my good appearance xD.
I have always dreamed of ending up with a beautifull anime/manga-woman :))
If all women were like those in the mangas/animes, it would be like a paradise.
I mean in highschool there were even some girls interested in me (only due to my good-looks ;)) , i think. But i keep ignoring everything.
Cause i can only end up with a person beautiful and nice as women in mangas/animes.
Well that is for the topic of women now^^
Even if i go to university it will be a waste of time, cause i know i don't have the intelligence to be the best.
So not to be among the best, makes no sense for me.
That is how it came, that i am doing nothing now.
I mean if i got some talents, skills i would use them but.....:(
MY life is just pathethic, i think i should end it somehow before it is getting even more worse than now.....
Yeah, strangely enough, I have had the Hiki-in-Japan fantasy myself. I've got to laugh at it though. What a ridiculous idea, learning a language, traveling across the world, and then sitting in my room. But hey, it could be worse, so long as I could find a way to support my lifestyle, which might be a problem. (: c)
I think in all cases, a college degree is a must. Seems like you need one of those for most things. So let that be your goal for now.
LOl, i mean the nature didn't give me the brain/mind for being intelligent.
So what can i do? If there where brain-surgeries to improve your intelligence etc. i would do it even if the chances of surviving that action would be 10% or less!
I can go to a university, but this is what i have thought about for several years now. It would be time-waste cause i am not intelligent enough.
I have no talent at all.
Being not among the best, is just like wasting all your time.
"Social Darwinism"
That is the right term, i think.
To be the best or just die is the motto.
Well than i think i have not many choices now...... :(
Believe me >>7
YOU DO NOT NEED TO BE INTELLIGENT TO GO TO COLLEGE.
Just take a look at our fine president.
Really, >>7 you don't give yourself enough credit.
The fact that you haven't made any spelling mistakes in your above post already sets you far above a vast sea of college idiots who, though incompetent, will take your job if you let them.
Don't let those idiots compete with you just because you're a pansy who's too lazy/scared to go to College.
>>8
is right, get a degree, it should be your first priority.
if you like anime and otaku culture that much like me, get into a japanese university that teaches in english, there's a few of em there.
Yeah you could study Jap and attempt an English Teacher/Translator dual-class build.
Thank you guys for encouraging me ;)
Well to be teacher is something which is absolutely not possible for me.
I just hated it, when i had to give speech in front of the class.
I would just not me, i would feel uncongenial in those situations :(
Well in Highschool we had to choose two subjects , in which we should emphasize our interests etc.
I have chosen physics and math. Well my degrees were below average especially in math, the degrees in physics were fluctuant :(
I haven't studied hard though. But there were a few guys who just gave damn shit about studies, and even though they have always received top-degrees.
So going to college is just.......i don't know:
Japanese Language? I always had bad degrees in languages too :(
Yeah i know, i am really pathethic. Thus i am naturally at home now killing off another day, watching the time flying away.
If there were no Animes or Mangas i really don't know why i should continue my life.
In Animes/Mangas, the heroes are mostly like me, a pathethic guy with no talent nor skill etc. But they end up being a heroe and being loved by a bunch of beautiful girls and women.
Haha, that is so fantastic.
I wish i could transfer my mind into another world!
But it is not possible (for now), therefore i hate the reality!
Perhaps i should try RMT (Real-money-trading) like Satou-kun (NHK) or try to become a professional gamer? xD
But even this, i think have not the strength to do it, cause i would give up easily, like always.
I just can't going on like this, but i have no will nor strenght to change anything........
PLEASE Misaki-chan, be a real person and help me like you did with Satou-kun! Onegai!
so, what about IT?
IT is one of these fields where it's easy for gaijin to get jobs in Japan.
Ever thought about learning a bit of programming?