I know there are several threads before, so this keeps repeating, sorry for that^^.
Well after highschool (bad grades), i have been staying at home doing nothing. Just watching TV and go to the PC (Animes and mangas :)) to kill off time.
I have no interests in anything i think and also no skill in any subject. In High school i was always alone and had no friends.
Hahaha, i think there were some girls who were interested in me(only reason would be that i not that bad-looking ;)) , but i just ignored them.
My woman of dream would be a person similar to the girls/women in mangas/animes.
They look so perfectly beautiful. I can't imagine women exists in reality, so one thing is for sure. That i will stay a loner for me rest of my life( very hort one hopefully).
Even if there were such women, they won't get into contact with low-lifes like me. I wish i would be a character from a manga/anime.
So you can call me a loser or whatever :(
6 months have already past by now since i was going out of the arpartement.
It is just a matter of time, when my parents will kick me out.
For me there is no future.
I mean i wished like in the anime/manga NHK, there would be a woman beautiful and nice as Misaki, who would try to help me.
But this is just my imagination.
So i keep dreaming.
There are several option how i end up:
2.Being kicked out, nowhere to go nothing to eat, just starving or freezing to death
3. A miracle will happen, thus turning my life completely
options 1+2 -------> chances are about 99.99999%
option 3 ----------> almost 0 :((
Well there is story about a miracle of an otaku i think.
Densha otoku it is called. But such a thing would never happen to me, i don't want them to happen, cause it requires a person in danger!
I know i am a stupid pathethic moron with no life etc.
But can't help it.
OP I recommend you read this http://www.cat.pdx.edu/~chuff/holiday.html if you are really serious about suicide (which I highly doubt) and not calling out for attention. If you read this document you will learn how to kill yourself effectively and efficiently.
>>102 thx, but i know everything already ;)
Just sleeping.............like the prefered method in Japan.
If that is how it is, then I will stop trying to show you angels. I am very sad about this. I am sure the angels are also weeping.
>>103
Yeah of course......then show me an "angel" who can change my genes.
If not, then i need no other "angels" ;(
He wants to change his genes???
you could transport OP into his favorite anime universe and nobody would see him on screen, 'cause he'd be sulking in the corner, dreaming of a way to get back to "reality".
HI it is me again ;)
I think i am not really a hikki. GOing out was pretty easy as today.
I think the next life is calling me ;=)
I visited the places of my past.......
Last step before i can go is to WATCH THE BEAUTIFUL STAR NIGHT :))
After that i can "sleep" peacefully and hopefully if i wake up, then i shall have a SUPERIOR GENES which would allow me to change the whole world ;)
Just wish me good luck, and believe in me and also remember this thread!!
"See" you in about 20years.
You should hear from the news about some very important person, who will change the earth for good ;)
Sayonara untile the day we "meet" again :)
Has some ego to think he'll respawn as an "important person". He'll just respawn as himself.
I wonder if he'll kill himself again, or chose to live for once.
Jesus fuck.
Get drunk.
Get out of the apartment.
Get a job.(who the hell cares if you don't like it, nobody likes their job)
You can't change the world, live with it like the rest of us.
hey hey i read this thread a bit. i feel bad for you since it seems in a sense you want help but you don't want to do the stuff that people are suggesting to you or something. no matter how hard they try to convince you only you can choose to help your self in the end. if you really want to stop being a hikikomori then choose to not be one. its simple
about the anime girls, i'm a girl and i think there are girls who are kind and stuff
but anime girls aren't real. i hope you realize that since real girls have more depth into them and aren't so 2D
i'm serious. the thing is anime is anime. no one acts like them in real life except cosplayers and that's all an act.
real people are more interesting since there's so much more them, they get angry,sad, depressed, happy, joyful, hopefuly, etc.
that's what makes real people so beautiful.