I know there are several threads before, so this keeps repeating, sorry for that^^.
Well after highschool (bad grades), i have been staying at home doing nothing. Just watching TV and go to the PC (Animes and mangas :)) to kill off time.
I have no interests in anything i think and also no skill in any subject. In High school i was always alone and had no friends.
Hahaha, i think there were some girls who were interested in me(only reason would be that i not that bad-looking ;)) , but i just ignored them.
My woman of dream would be a person similar to the girls/women in mangas/animes.
They look so perfectly beautiful. I can't imagine women exists in reality, so one thing is for sure. That i will stay a loner for me rest of my life( very hort one hopefully).
Even if there were such women, they won't get into contact with low-lifes like me. I wish i would be a character from a manga/anime.
So you can call me a loser or whatever :(
6 months have already past by now since i was going out of the arpartement.
It is just a matter of time, when my parents will kick me out.
For me there is no future.
I mean i wished like in the anime/manga NHK, there would be a woman beautiful and nice as Misaki, who would try to help me.
But this is just my imagination.
So i keep dreaming.
There are several option how i end up:
2.Being kicked out, nowhere to go nothing to eat, just starving or freezing to death
3. A miracle will happen, thus turning my life completely
options 1+2 -------> chances are about 99.99999%
option 3 ----------> almost 0 :((
Well there is story about a miracle of an otaku i think.
Densha otoku it is called. But such a thing would never happen to me, i don't want them to happen, cause it requires a person in danger!
I know i am a stupid pathethic moron with no life etc.
But can't help it.
Has some ego to think he'll respawn as an "important person". He'll just respawn as himself.
I wonder if he'll kill himself again, or chose to live for once.
Jesus fuck.
Get drunk.
Get out of the apartment.
Get a job.(who the hell cares if you don't like it, nobody likes their job)
You can't change the world, live with it like the rest of us.