hey hey i read this thread a bit. i feel bad for you since it seems in a sense you want help but you don't want to do the stuff that people are suggesting to you or something. no matter how hard they try to convince you only you can choose to help your self in the end. if you really want to stop being a hikikomori then choose to not be one. its simple

about the anime girls, i'm a girl and i think there are girls who are kind and stuff

but anime girls aren't real. i hope you realize that since real girls have more depth into them and aren't so 2D

i'm serious. the thing is anime is anime. no one acts like them in real life except cosplayers and that's all an act.

real people are more interesting since there's so much more them, they get angry,sad, depressed, happy, joyful, hopefuly, etc.

that's what makes real people so beautiful.