What a beautiful post by you, thank you so much :))
Even a cold hearted, anti-social guy like me, can see that you are really speaking out of your soul ;)
And i am glad you live a happy live now :)
I also like the mangas/animes, because the characters show their thinking and inner feeling like an open-book.
Me, as a person who has no social competence, almost never understood what the others were thinking of (school-time).
But i think i am also pretty superficial ^^.
The female anime/manga characters are looking so beautiful :)
In my opninion they are perfect, thus no women (sorry^^) in reality can compete with them. That is why i can't fall for a real women ;(
I have always seeked for perfection. This is also the ironic.
Me i am so far from it (besides my looking (^_^) ) in every thing i did and do, it is so impossible for me :(
Therefore i live my real-life in my dreams.
I am so pathethic :(
Btw:
The only thing besides animes and mangas i like is most probably is the star sky^^.
I could probably stare at the night sky with the stars the whole night long. (of course i do it from the window in my room^^). ( i am somewhat like Hei-kun from the anime Darker than Black)
I really hope something like a miracle happen to mee though :(.
But once again thank you for you really caring post :)
Arrigatou Gozaimasu ;)