>>48 Nope, there aren't any anime conventions near-by ;(

I mean i don't know if i really like mangas/animes or they are just there for me klling off the time.

I just have no interests at all and never had any. I just feel like i am zombie or something similar.
The need for food etc., but nothing more :(

Just empty. No goals, nor skills, nor talent, nor intelligence nor will.

It is like if i would never have existed in the first place.

>>49 You mean changing attitude will resolve in changing the facts?

I am great winner, should i scream and ignoring the facts?
This would make me even more pathethic, than i am now^^