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The other question is why do i want to see "my fiction" as you named it?
There won't be an answer for me.
Of course, i can find a job and go to work, 5 days a week, living a normal life etc. etc. and then either die from an illness, an accident or a "normal" death predtermined by our genes.

I can forsee what will happen anyways, like i did when i was still in school.

>"You say your life is meaningless, so is mine. EVERYBODY'S IS, so what on earth do you gain by ending it?"

Well i would say 99,999% or even much higher!of the earth's population is. There you are right.

The rest are the Elites (well i think 60.000 people is still to much of number) who determine the future of the earth and the humankind.

MOstly they are scientists! or people in very high positions.

So not being the one among them, is for be me absolutely not forgivable.
Well i have known this for a long time, this fact.

It must have been for so many years now, almost like my whole lifetime that i am just living day by day, in an empty body ; no goals, since i know they are not in my reach, due to the determination of my intelligence etc. by the GENES, not in this lifetime at least ;)).
Or a mircale will happen that will change me completely.

I am sorry that i can't express myself properly.
If i'd only have an IQ over 180, i can argue for my points better.

It is also a pathethic fact, that many countries consider suicide as a muder.
SO ridicoulous. This means you are being a property of someone else. Well surely, if i would say that in front of people they will put me into a closed cell and brainwash me then.
If i would have the intelligence i could bring up arguments you cannot denie besides your are lying and denie yourself (or you are just like most people to stupid to understand!), just to show off this hypocrits, people who think doing the right because it is just law etc, without even thinking deeper into the matter.

btw: The only thing why i didn't commit suicide yet to free myself from this maze, is that i am "CHICKEN" xD and a Hikki^^.
Of course i can just jump off from a high building, but as i said, my body is working against my mind ;)
But luckily i found the method to log off.
It is just like sleeping, but without getting awke again, atleast not with your actual body. Just beautiful and an appropiate ending. My soul and mind (if something like this exists) would depart then from my body without great force.
However i will wait a little longer for a miracle (or call it "accidental" event), although the chances tends to abosolute zero.

Well the easiest argument you can bring up in this debate is, that you will die sooner or later, this is matter of fact.

But thanks anyway for your thoughtful post ;).