..emm, the OP here (the one this thread is about) is ID:Ji/e8tdE so >>18, I recomend you to make a new thread so we can focus on your problem and help you ^^.
By the way, >>18 you should "participate" more frequently with your groups, so you can let them know your valueable precense.

Now, for the OP here... I kinda feel like you. Depressed in a lifeless way. But you should do as I did: start doing things you enjoy the most. Not caring if it's "worthless" for you. Being happy with what you like to do not worthless.