>>11

Well, my pride won't allow me to do this.
I am already sick of leeching from my parents.

Soon i will go to university with the financial help of the state though.

I will try my best.
If i fail, i surely won't live on welfare and lying myself off for and also i won't take any crap jobs.

An hero i will become then.

I have made up my mind.

-> University:

1. Sucess (not necessarily money-wis, but gaining the knowledge to be very productive -> research and invenstions)
2. Failure -> suicide

I am happy with both.