I am 21. I have never been in any kind of relationship to another person, never kissed anyone or even hugged. I have always had a lot of friends though, but obviously appeared very strong to others so that still only few people dare talking to me. It actually is kind of true, as I had to be self-dependent since I was a child and had to live on my own since I was 16. So I assume I am, if not strong, maybe at least tough.
I tried to do my best in whatever I did. My graduation was good. Started working for half a year to save money for gaining some more experiences before I start studying at college. And right now I am in Japan. I went with the hope to change something. I think simply me myself.
However, I feel like I am the oly person I can rely on. I cannot talk to people I like frankly. I can't look other people into the eyes anymore.
Have you tried joining a dating site?
...no
A friend of mine once did and only met strange people.
Did you see the movie "unbreakable" with Bruce Willis? I ask because we are at opposite ends of the spectrum, much like Bruce and Samuel Jackson in that movie. I am also 21, but since I was 14 I've been in relationships and have been very dependent on them. I've been single maybe 4-5 months out of the last 7 years, and still live at my parents house along with a 23yr/old brother and 16yr/old sister. Reading your post about who you are makes me realize who I am: I am a weak loser. You learned to rely on yourself, and deep down I know that I am still not strong enough to rely on myself. You are so lucky not to need to depend on other people, it gives you a certain dignity that I have never known.
>And right now I am in Japan
>I cannot talk to people I like frankly. I can't look other people into the eyes anymore.
Sounds like you'll fit right in.
>>9 I was thinking that but didn't want to say it due to a lack of confidence.
lol. well if you can look at people in the eyes in japan at least no one will oppose you..new fearsome leader