>>14 I think it's good that you're becoming better at controlling your anxieties, but don't think you are off the hook. Difficult times will come back again. This should not depress you, but you have to be ready for it. I don't think you ever get "healed". But you can get very good at "dealing with it", and have a normal life.

So yeah, this time is for real, and it will be real even if you have a relapse. Also, at the moment I think your priority (besides getting a job) should be to improve your social skills. You can achieve this by 1) getting a job 2)participating in group activities (think about things you'd like to do in a group, like sports, walks, theater, watch a game, etc) 3)do stuff with your friends, family, etc.

It's exposure that will allow you to improve yourself. You need to realize that people are in fact quite laid back and tolerant, and that you don't need to worry so much about how improper your behavior might be.