Thanks..I probably do put too much pressure on myself. The reason why I started to panic and get depressed is that I've just turned 21 and still pursuing a two-year degree even though I started when I was 18. It just feels like I haven't gone anywhere (I changed my school and major half-way in, as well as my part-time job keeping my busy, so thats why its been slow).
Also thanks. My school provides a graduate follow-up report for people in my degree. 7 people responded, their yearly salary ranges from $30k-$45k and all 7 of them are employed. It's outdated ('06-'07) but it helps knowing that. I'll try and ask my college to see if I can get into contact with some graduates and find out what they're doing and all that.
As for me opening up...I know it can't be done overnight, but I'll try to take some steps forward on it.
I still don't feel like playing games or watching anime really, it could be that I'm just burnt out on them too.