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I sympathize with a lot of what you're saying. I guess. I mean, I've been there, and in many ways I still am. I work a lot, and even though I have friends, I haven't had a girlfriend for about five years. I did have a long and serious relationship for a few years in college, but really, it was a total disaster. No regrets, but still.
However, there's one thing you said that I found interesting (if you're even still here after six months to respond at all.)
>Once, I decided to ask my boyfriend to show me the torrents he was downloading.
Yeah, look. Don't do this. I think I understand why you did it, but it is just straight asking for problems. Even though I was faithful to my girlfriend, I would have never showed her my torrent list or, for that matter, the contents of my hard drive. Not that I had anything downright wrong on there, but the loads of doujin and artwork stuff I had was lurid at best and downright shocking at worst. She almost certainly would have left me then and there. At least that's what I was thinking.
But, you know, I had that stuff as an escape. My girlfriend was definitely special, and a great girl, but she wasn't giving me all of what I needed. I'm a pervert and she's as plain vanilla as you can get. I'm not saying anything about you, but consider that a man might have good reasons for refusing to reveal such information. In my case, it just happened that instead of crushing on another girl, I was into girls who only existed on ink and paper. Is that worse? I don't know.
I'm sorry to hear about your issues, though, and I hope you can work them out. I have a lot to work out too.