For a rant thread, there aren't that many rants by singles lately...

Well, I've got nothing to do on the 4th of July. I wanted to at least watch some fireworks, but I have no idea if there'll be any in my town, or if it'll be in the next town over, which I won't be able to get to due to lack of transportation.

It's depressing, really. I don't have anyone who'd go with me anyway, as my friend who I've usually hung around with on Independance Day has a boyfriend now, so she's probably going to some resturaunt with him. My other friend lives a little too far for me to go there, and her family's having a barbeque that day, so she can't come here. I'd go to NYC to see fireworks(trains go there every hour from where I live, even in the middle of the night, and the train station's within walking distance from where I live), but I'd rather not go there by myself. Even my family lacks motivation to do anything. My parents are moving to a new house soon, so they're too busy packing things to think about doing anything on the 4th.

My motivation to enjoy life's slowly draining away. I need to save my money, so I can't spend it on anything this summer. I'd like to do a lot of things, like go to the beach once, go to an amusement park, visit NYC, meet up with some old friends, but as the weeks go by at my summer job, I come home too tired to do anything. All I do is eat, work, watch anime, and sleep. I wish I could do something more productive this summer. Really, you're only young once. I'd like to have fond memories of my youth when I grow old, but if things keep going as they are, I'm just going to grow old regretting being alive at all, because I never really did anything special.

I guess I'm just antsy. I'm gonna try and call up some old friends of mine tomorrow, maybe, just to get out of this lifeless slump I'm in.