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If you are not ready, then for the love of God, don't do it. That is what happened to me, I went with a girl who thought she was ready, but wasn't. So not only she hurt herself but hurt me as well. Just enjoy your life and just be who you are, one day you will find a guy who will be the answer to your prayers.
As for me
I feeling much better now. The first night, I was literally sick. But the next day I felt so much better. While we were dating, she made me join her dance team because they needed guys and we have a show coming up next week. I easily could have not gone and quit, but I am being a gentleman about it and going to perform in the show, but I have no more obligation to be there, so after I am done with it.
Last night, she wanted to talk to my friend about us. My friend probably took the break up harder than we did, since he recently broke up with his girlfriend and literally told me that we were the only sign that love still existed. I demanded that I listen to it so I could get some closure, hoping that there some other reason for the break up. But turns out it was the same reasons, basically she got scared and wasn't ready for a relationship. But since I was there, and my friend can get angry easily, we started to ask her hard questions and basically made her feel guilty. At that point she got upset and ended the conversation. My friend got upset that he may have ruined his friendship with her, so I called her up and told her I was there and you shouldn't be mad at him, you should be mad at me.
So tonight we are going to meet and tie up any loose ends. The thought that we can still be friends are gone and any hope that we can get back together is over, even though there is a ember of that hope in pit of my soul but I will stamp it out as soon as I can find it. I really don't want it to end, but the truth is, it is over. My mind has accepted that fact, it takes a little longer for my heart to do the same. Am I crazy to think that there is hope? Please tell me yes, please tell me that it is over, because honestly I cannot fully accept it and I don't know if I fully will.