Some loser copy-pasta'd this from another thread.
But look >>17, if you take medication that can make you feel better, you may suddenly realize that "reality" isn't etched in stone, it's as mutable as your mood. I think you are depressed. Nobody who talks like you isn't depressed. Maybe you've been depressed so long that you've forgotten what feeling normal was like, so you've convinced yourself that you're an idiot and useless and that there is not hope. THERE'S ALWAYS HOPE. THERE'S ALWAYS CHANGE.
So anyway, what third-world European country are you from? At least give us the general geographic area.