Reining In My Libido (11)

1 Name: Wanker : 2008-04-07 10:09 ID:F6gFwpJw

I think I already know one answer to this problem. I just want to talk about it to someone. I hope that that would encourage me to actually stick to my solution.

Simply put, I get turned on by various things that I find horribly wrong whenever I'm not horny.
I fap to rape footage (scripted, thank god), sharking, lolicon, child models, and the like. I have just enough of a spine not to fap to CP when I come across it, but I know I could. I once even fapped to a newspaper article about a teacher that made a little girl strip in class for not making her homework. And as soon as the jizz is out and I'm sexually sober again, I despise myself.

You may think I shouldn't feel bad about being turned on by fake rape or drawn lolicon, since stuff like that isn't harming anyone. But it is. It's harming me.
I don't want to be a pervert. I want to be a decent, honest, righteous person. It disturbs me that I like to fantasize about things that harm people and would probably scar them for life.

I wish I would just not be turned on by this kind of thing. I wish it would shock and disgust me instead. And not only afterwards.
But since that doesn't seem very feasible, I'm left with one simple yet difficult solution: resisting the urge.
I have plenty of fetishes I don't have to feel bad about afterwards. CFNM, public nudity, girls in useless clothes that show everything, ecchi nudity in general - if consensual, that's all perfectly fine with my conscience. I hope to restrict myself to those in order to stay away the sick shit.
My problem is that while I know I should be more mindful about the type of pr0n I fap to, I still often end up making such decisions with my harbl instead of my brains.
They say men don't have enough blood to fill their penis and their brains at the same time. I fulfil this stereotype perfectly.

tl;dr How do I stopped fapping to sick shit?

2 Name: Anonymous : 2008-04-07 11:43 ID:Heaven

OP same happened here too

> I wish I would just not be turned on by this kind of thing. I wish it would shock and disgust me instead.

That would be hypocritic.
OP I have a much simpler solution for you:
Just keep fapping.
I know the reason I do it is so my dick cums and I can start thinking with my brain again.
Don't resist fapping. It's catastrophic.
Just think about it. Are you harming anyone? no.

3 Name: Wanker : 2008-04-07 12:34 ID:F6gFwpJw

>>2
I discussed this.
Yes, I am harming someone. I'm harming myself. I think getting off on the wrong kind of stuff can warp your mind into dangerous directions.
Also, I'm not talking about not fapping at all. Just about not fapping to sick shit. I know it's normal and for a healthy young man to masturbate. But the difference between normal, healthy behaviour and perversion is in the content that is fapped to.

4 Name: Anonymous : 2008-04-07 13:51 ID:6pBxTE8w

I'm encouraged you have this type of attitude OP, I think it shows your conscience still works. I know a lot of poster who'd continue fapping to that material until they become desensitized and try justifying it.

I'm not in your shoes, but I know fapping can be addicting. I mean all those endorfin feel good. What I did was get out of the house and workout. I also try to control the fapping to 2 or 3 times a week.

Do you have a girl friend? I bet that would help too.

Anywho, goodluck my friend. fap safely :D

5 Name: Wanker : 2008-04-07 15:25 ID:F6gFwpJw

>>4

>I'm encouraged you have this type of attitude OP, I think it shows your conscience still works. I know a lot of poster who'd continue fapping to that material until they become desensitized and try justifying it.

I've kind of been there. In my teen years (not too long ago; I'm 20yo now) I would fap to anything and never feel bad about it. I'm not sure what made me change, but at some point I started considering it wrong. Maybe it was a matter of growing up.

>I'm not in your shoes, but I know fapping can be addicting. I mean all those endorfin feel good. What I did was get out of the house and workout. I also try to control the fapping to 2 or 3 times a week.

I could try going outside and away from the computer more, and do most of my computer-related work (i.e. almost all of it) elsewhere on public computers in university buildings where I wouldn't think of going anywhere not worksafe, but I'm not sure how much that's going to help. I'd probably just fap in the evening, when I'm home again. On the other hand, it would mean a lot less hours of seduction.
I will try physical exercise as a way to get my mind off fapping. I've noticed before that I can get a similar kind of satisfaction of both, although fapping takes less effort and is brought to my attention more often.

>Do you have a girl friend? I bet that would help too.

Lol. I bet it would, but getting a girlfriend would require me to have about three times as much of a spine as staying away from wrong porn would. :P
I'm a shy person, and kind of intimidated by the idea of having a relationship.

>Anywho, goodluck my friend. fap safely :D

Lol, thanks.

6 Name: Anonymous : 2008-04-07 16:50 ID:Heaven

>>1,3,5
Dude, don't be a faggot.
It really doesn't matter.
You are harming yourself if you don't fap. The urge to fap to things you consider sick will come again and again until it will drive you crazy.
JUST FAP!
If yourself is the only person you harm, then if you don't care about it simply nobody gets hurt.

> I know a lot of poster who'd continue fapping to that material until they become desensitized and try justifying it.

Like me, uh.. maybe anonymous.
In real life ofcourse I don't mention it.
Look OP, with our technology it's just a matter of time before we have realistic 3D porn. When that happends be sure to see the sickest shit ever, including, I'm sure, 3D CP.
What are you going to do then? Still not fap? Becaus ethey look like real? What if you cannot dinstict whether they are real or not?
Add to this, what the fuck is this fucked up thinking. "I'll fap to child models but not to CP".
Are you retarded? Child models after the photo shoots get pounded and guess what, they are often beaten, treated very badly etc.. How the fuck do you justify that?

OP don't be a retard, self-realization is really good but what you try to solve is not a problem.
Perhaps you have a slight addiction to the internet? Or masturbating? It's possible to get addicted to these things.

7 Name: Wanker : 2008-04-07 17:31 ID:F6gFwpJw

>>6

>Look OP, with our technology it's just a matter of time before we have realistic 3D porn. When that happends be sure to see the sickest shit ever, including, I'm sure, 3D CP.
>What are you going to do then? Still not fap? Becaus ethey look like real? What if you cannot dinstict whether they are real or not?

You're not paying a lot of attention, are you? I'm quite sure I mentioned lolicon too, and that the fact that it's not real doesn't make it right to me. The fact that it's about children that makes it wrong to me, not because of consequences or people actually getting hurt, but because of principles. I want to be able to look at a child and think "aw, what a sweet little girl" instead of "I'd hit it".
I could stop worrying, sure, but then I'd still be fucked up. I don't want to be fucked up.
Besides, 3D CP already exists, and is outlawed in some places because they can be next to impossible to distinguish from real children.

>Add to this, what the fuck is this fucked up thinking. "I'll fap to child models but not to CP".
>Are you retarded? Child models after the photo shoots get pounded and guess what, they are often beaten, treated very badly etc.. How the fuck do you justify that?

Firstly: I never heard about this before.
Secondly: I don't justify it. I think fapping to child models is wrong too. That's why I'm here.

Honestly, you sound like you're just trying to defend your own right to be a pervert.
Well, I don't care what you fap to. Indulge in your debauchery and let your conscience fester away for all I care. I assume you're an adult, so it's your own responsibility. But I don't want to go there.

Please don't try to talk me out of this.

8 Name: Anonymous : 2008-04-07 20:47 ID:GSRQrj9s

>>2
this.

9 Name: Anonymous : 2008-04-07 20:57 ID:Heaven

To control my own behaviour, I ask myself why I behave that way in the first place.
The self-analysis can make it so much easier to make a decision with a clear head.

10 Name: hey : 2009-09-02 10:45 ID:rbxVVFZT

have you been watching porn for a long time now it could be that you are desensitized from it the normal stuf that made you jizz doesnt get you aroused any more and the stuf really graphic like scripted rape, child porn, beastilaity what ever gets you excited for that reason you should stop looking at porn for starters and remember the time when you did get aroused about normal stuff and use you own imagination because porn and real sex are really different in porn you are treating women like a toy or piece of meat or a drug once you get bored of it you look for more exciting stuff.

11 Name: hey : 2009-09-02 10:48 ID:rbxVVFZT

have you been watching porn for a long time now it could be that you are desensitized from it the normal stuf that made you jizz doesnt get you aroused any more and the stuf really graphic like scripted rape, child porn, beastilaity what ever gets you excited for that reason you should stop looking at porn for starters and remember the time when you did get aroused about normal stuff and use you own imagination because porn and real sex are really different in porn you are treating women like a toy or piece of meat or a drug once you get bored of it you look for more exciting stuff.

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