I think I already know one answer to this problem. I just want to talk about it to someone. I hope that that would encourage me to actually stick to my solution.
Simply put, I get turned on by various things that I find horribly wrong whenever I'm not horny.
I fap to rape footage (scripted, thank god), sharking, lolicon, child models, and the like. I have just enough of a spine not to fap to CP when I come across it, but I know I could. I once even fapped to a newspaper article about a teacher that made a little girl strip in class for not making her homework. And as soon as the jizz is out and I'm sexually sober again, I despise myself.
You may think I shouldn't feel bad about being turned on by fake rape or drawn lolicon, since stuff like that isn't harming anyone. But it is. It's harming me.
I don't want to be a pervert. I want to be a decent, honest, righteous person. It disturbs me that I like to fantasize about things that harm people and would probably scar them for life.
I wish I would just not be turned on by this kind of thing. I wish it would shock and disgust me instead. And not only afterwards.
But since that doesn't seem very feasible, I'm left with one simple yet difficult solution: resisting the urge.
I have plenty of fetishes I don't have to feel bad about afterwards. CFNM, public nudity, girls in useless clothes that show everything, ecchi nudity in general - if consensual, that's all perfectly fine with my conscience. I hope to restrict myself to those in order to stay away the sick shit.
My problem is that while I know I should be more mindful about the type of pr0n I fap to, I still often end up making such decisions with my harbl instead of my brains.
They say men don't have enough blood to fill their penis and their brains at the same time. I fulfil this stereotype perfectly.
tl;dr How do I stopped fapping to sick shit?
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I discussed this.
Yes, I am harming someone. I'm harming myself. I think getting off on the wrong kind of stuff can warp your mind into dangerous directions.
Also, I'm not talking about not fapping at all. Just about not fapping to sick shit. I know it's normal and for a healthy young man to masturbate. But the difference between normal, healthy behaviour and perversion is in the content that is fapped to.
>I'm encouraged you have this type of attitude OP, I think it shows your conscience still works. I know a lot of poster who'd continue fapping to that material until they become desensitized and try justifying it.
I've kind of been there. In my teen years (not too long ago; I'm 20yo now) I would fap to anything and never feel bad about it. I'm not sure what made me change, but at some point I started considering it wrong. Maybe it was a matter of growing up.
>I'm not in your shoes, but I know fapping can be addicting. I mean all those endorfin feel good. What I did was get out of the house and workout. I also try to control the fapping to 2 or 3 times a week.
I could try going outside and away from the computer more, and do most of my computer-related work (i.e. almost all of it) elsewhere on public computers in university buildings where I wouldn't think of going anywhere not worksafe, but I'm not sure how much that's going to help. I'd probably just fap in the evening, when I'm home again. On the other hand, it would mean a lot less hours of seduction.
I will try physical exercise as a way to get my mind off fapping. I've noticed before that I can get a similar kind of satisfaction of both, although fapping takes less effort and is brought to my attention more often.
>Do you have a girl friend? I bet that would help too.
Lol. I bet it would, but getting a girlfriend would require me to have about three times as much of a spine as staying away from wrong porn would. :P
I'm a shy person, and kind of intimidated by the idea of having a relationship.
>Anywho, goodluck my friend. fap safely :D
Lol, thanks.