Fall semester begins in exactly 2 weeks at my university and I could not be any more apprehensive. This is my 2nd year there and I'm still considered a freshman rather than a sophomore due to screwing around too much last year. I failed a fair share of my courses, my GPA is a abysmal, and I have no idea what I want to do at college. I'm surprised they haven't booted me out yet.

I feel like I'm there because that's how I was raised and taught. You go through elementary school, middle school, high school, college, get your degree, get your job, get your family, get old. But is school for me? Throughout high school I had a series of fuck ups but I still haven't learned my lesson in college.

I just have absolutely no idea what I'm doing with my life. I have no goals, no ambitions. I laze around all day, playing video games, goofing off on the internet, or hanging out with the few friends that I actually have. I've never had a job and I'm too petrified to put my foot forward to obtain one. I'm turning 20 this year but I still feel like I haven't matured.

I need to get my shit together but I just don't know where to being.