So yeah. Where should I begin?
Recently, I've found myself with a general lack of emotion. I mean, I'll have moments and spurts of it, but for most of the time, I will find myself generally literally apathetic. I'll sometimes even have to force myself to be sad for someone when they tell me something happened to them, and I'm even having to force myself to feel love for my girlfriend, or being happy when my friends are around. Hell, I'm beginning to get annoyed by them, simply because they're so damn... Energetic. I'd honestly would rather either be left alone, or just like, lay around with my friends, not even doing anything.
I don't even want to do anything any more, either. I mean, everything I'm doing is now simply because I CAN, because it's something to do, not because I necessarily WANT to. I'll do whatever keeps me from experiencing the most discomfort, or whatever I think might be able to elicit some kind of excitement in me, with the latter usually failing.
So yeah. Tell me, PI, what the hell is wrong with me, and how can I fix it, if I even can?
omg i have what you have. I have had it for years.. :(
You are becoming disillusioned with the fullness of human relationships; pleasure exists as dependent on reason. If you have none for pleasure, you will have no pleasure. The opposite is just as true. You are at a stage where it is impossible to go back to your "old" self, ignorant of the choice to willingly spare yourself the social nuisance. You must choose - To think, not feel, and live with yourself? Or, don't think, feel, and you'll be immersed. It is up to you.
>>3 i want that "don't think, feel, and you'll be immersed" but i don't know how to approach!!
But ultimately it is within that dank and dark cave of human emotions and fears that we all overcome ourselves.
Congratulations, you're suffering from depression.
>>7
You might actually have a point. I do feel depressed most of the time when i'm not distracting miself with anime and games, because there is nothing that i truly WANT to do or to have.
>>1
It could also be that you are subconsciously suppressing your feelings because of some kind of trauma, out of fear, or because you were educated that way. In any case, it is probably wise to meet a therapist (NOT a psychiatrist, those only prescribe pills that don't solve the problem).
>>feel love for my girlfriend
i stopped reading at girlfriend, Anyone with a girlfriend doesn't have the right to complain. FUCK OFF!
>> 9
>Well, I always thought of suppressing my feelings as having them just not choosing to show them. I mean, I literally feel apathetic at times. I mean, I have to FAKE emotions so people don't get pissed at me.
Thats Life, I had this problem of feeling depressed and there was an Advice that has been given that, you should ignore your feelings, your own feelings get in the way of your life. you don't fake your emotions, rather you get rid of them, I got rid of all the un-necessary emotions by letting go, cutting it away from me.
You will have to Act on your Appearance that makes people happy and be an enjoyable person to be with instead of getting people pissed at you, those Deep-emotions make yourself look selfish and whenever you dont control them, that makes it look like you need a conforter, which is selfish, itself.
>>11You will have to Act on your Appearance that makes people happy and be an enjoyable person to be with instead of getting people pissed at you, those Deep-emotions make yourself look selfish and whenever you dont control them, that makes it look like you need a conforter, which is selfish, itself.
Marge: Now Lisa, listen to me, this is important. I want you to smile today.
Lisa: But I don't feel like smiling.
Marge: Well it doesn't matter how you feel inside, you know? It's what shows up on the surface that counts. That's what my mother taught me. Take all your bad feelings and push them down, all the way down, past your knees until you're almost walking on them. And then you'll fit in, and you'll be invited to parties, and boys will like you, and happiness will follow.
Lisa: [feeble attempt at a smile]
Marge: No, come on. You can do better than that.
Lisa: [a much brighter smile]
Marge: Aww, that's my girl. [rubs Lisa's hair]
Lisa: [through her teeth] I feel more popular already.
-- ``Moaning Lisa''
At the entrance to the school building.
Boy1: Hey, nice smile.
Lisa: Thanks.
Boy2: Hey, what are you talking to her for? She's just going to say something weird.
Lisa: Not me!
Boy1: You know, I used to think you were some sort of a
Brainiac, but, I guess you're okay, and...
Lisa: Uh-huh.
Boy2: Hey, why don't you come over to my house after practice. You can do my homework.
Lisa: [forced] Okay.
-- ``Moaning Lisa''
Marge (who had been observing) fumes. (``Mmmmmmmm!'')
Mr Largo(teacher):" Miss Simpson, I hope we won't have a repeat of yesterday's outburst of `Unbridled Creativity'.
Lisa responds, No, sir.'' Growling, Marge U-turns the car, pulls Lisainside and speeds off. Notes Mr. Largo, Hummph. So that's where she gets it.''
Marge stops the car.
`Lisa, I apologize to you, I was wrong, I take it
all back. Always be yourself. If you want to be sad, honey, be sad.be sad. We'll ride it out with you. And when you get finished feeling sad, we'll still be there. From now on, let me do the smiling for both of us.''Lisa smiles and embraces her. Okay, Mom.'' I said you could stop smiling, Lisa.'' ``I feel like smiling.'' Marge is touched.
END
Obviously,
>> 12 has been watching too much Simpsons
Real Life doesn't work that way, like in cartoons and live happy ever after, or with a new start to begin a new episode.
I take that >>1 is a deep person, and in which case, no one in the world will know the true extent of who you are and how you like to behave, this is why people like us, need to ignore those deep thoughts and that side of personality as its too complicated to share.
Feelings get in the way of life
Emotion serves both a individual and societal purpose. both are useful to their respective parties.
individually it may serve to encourage and discourage behavior and thought. Utilize it because you are discontent with how you currently are and because you recognize emotion as one avenue of change.
socially it allows others to better comprehend a situation without the mental tax of understanding the entirety of a person's thoughts/being. Utilize it because it can facilitate communication, and because you recognize there are things worth communicating over.
As for conjuring emotion, think of it simply as conditioning yourself to do some odd thing. If you wanted to sneeze every time you had an erection, you'd pour pepper down your nose everytime you were aroused. At first it is odd, requiring effort, and boring but eventually it becomes instinctual habit. In this same way, think of the emotion you want to feel, find it (it does exist within your brain, sections such as fear and lust etc), and just feel it without any reason to. then 'remember' what that felt like, remember where in your mind you had to go to feel it, and then go there when you hit your external queue for emotion action.